. The death grip on my head right while she trembles uncontrollably right before she cums hard and her legs give out. The way she pulls me back up and tastes herself on my lips. THAT'S WHY.
. The way she bites her lower lip when she looks down at me thinking "Oh God, just fuck me". The way her back arches. The way she grinds her sensitive clit on my tongue.
No matter how many spiritual practices you engage in or the self-help books you read, you can't change your life until you face your fears and reflect on your choices and the emotions that led you there.