I feel empty again. I was happy talking to her, but she isn't the one. I really, really wanted her to be. Birthday's coming up. I hope she doesn't wish me a happy birthday.
Everything has been a distraction from my 50th birthday. I still feel like opting out.
It's always the too skinny or too fat. Ugly women that be all hypersexual and shit. Shit never matches. Or its a pretty face woman and secretly be easy af. There's always. Always something wrong with mfs...