Je Da

This will be the saddest account I can manage. Maybe I'll get over 7 years this way. Maybe this will just compound the issue. #breakup #wtf #hopeless

[Je Da @JeDa18]

It's a strange feeling to wish someone ill, and to wish them safe and happy at the same time. #falling #confused #wistful

[Je Da @JeDa18]

Do you think that you'll ever see that person and just be friends again? Even if they broke your heart? Even if you don't know how to be yourself yet? #friends #soulsearching #lifeafterlove

[Je Da @JeDa18]

Am I supposed to have anxiety over this? Is that normal?

[Je Da @JeDa18]

What happens if I can't stop loving them, and the depression and anxiety grows.. and they completely take over my thoughts instead of just being on my mind everyday..
#worried #twistedfeelings #breakup #feelings

[Je Da @JeDa18]

getting back to me is harder than I imaged. I agreed to be friends.. Who does that?! Their friend is friends with her ex and she is obviously not over him. I don't think I'll be over them either, and I don't want to end up like her...
#breakup #relationshiptrouble #ex

[Je Da @JeDa18]

Breakup songs hurt just as much as love songs. I don't know how to listen to music anymore. . .

[Je Da @JeDa18]

Is it wrong to hope we get back together some day?
#hope #misplacedhope #notrust #howshouldifeel

[Je Da @JeDa18]

The first dream I had since we broke up - and obviously it had to be about them... And we were together and happy, and my mom was being horrible.. And it was exactly what they said it was. They hated her. Now if only I could hate them..

[Je Da @JeDa18]

It's great when I think I can function for a day, and then at the end something happens that reminds me of them and I spiral. Hard. Sometimes I get depressed for the entire next day and don't know how to deal with life, ignoring people, trying to hope it was different..

[Je Da @JeDa18]

I'm actually very impressed by my parents seeming to be actually sane sometimes when they talk about each other. I can't even begin to think how it would be if I had actually proposed to them, and if we had a child/ children.
#separatedparents #sympathy #empathy

[Je Da @JeDa18]

I keep hoping they've changed their mind, that them wishing me Merry Christmas after saying they wouldn't bother me anymore, means that they still have feelings. That it's not lost. That my pulse speeding up as I hope the next message is theirs, it's dumb and in vain.

[Je Da @JeDa18]

How is it that you are forced to break up with someone, because they would not do it but refused to give you any more affection, but they still want to be friends?
Does it stop hurting? Do you ever stop loving them?
#heartbreak #confused #stillinlove