JellyBeans

Questioning system of a few more than one. Looking for answers to all our questions.
18+

she/her
Collectively; they/them

[JellyBeans @JellybeansThe]

Just a note that we slightly charged our screen name/profile. We're still The Jelly Beans Collective, we are still a collective. JellyBeans just feels more right. It's what our system friends call us, and we like it.

[JellyBeans @JellybeansThe]

@adreelys @ILLUMINUSNUMB_ Thank you, I really appreciate that 💜
I don't even know what to say anymore. The mental health care system has written me off in all possible ways, so there's not even a place to turn when I do find the courage to ask for help. Feels like rock bottom and they throw more rocks 💔

[JellyBeans @JellybeansThe]

@adreelys I'm so sorry you're struggling like this. I wish I could take your pain away, give you a break from all the chaos. I wish all of you could feel peace, feel safe and loved and know that you never deserved any of the bad that happened to you. You deserve kindness, love and safety.

[JellyBeans @JellybeansThe]

@TrekkyAmy @look_to_god @DrDoyleSays Bc lying down means you intend to sleep. a
And to go to sleep you first need to relax your body and mind, and *that* means letting go (of control) and that is scarey af..
At least on a subconscious level. I don't even want to think about it. I watch my shows until I fall asleep.

[JellyBeans @JellybeansThe]

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And I know, many will probably say that I'm wrong, it's not like that.

But can you ever imagine the burden of being so wanted, and knowing you will never live up to those expectations, and being reminded of that every single day of your life?

[JellyBeans @JellybeansThe]

11/
I can emphasize so much with my parents on this.
But it's also what hurts the most.
For the *idea* of me to be worth so much to them, and what I was instead was a bigger burden than they could ever imagine

[JellyBeans @JellybeansThe]

@AutisticWaffles @NeuroRebel Oh the joy of re-remembering that my parents did that all by themselves. Didn't even have any training or anything, just did their own thing. Turns out it was ABA all along.

[JellyBeans @JellybeansThe]

@DrDoyleSays Yeah. My former MBT therapist kept pushing that my grandmother may have acted the way she did bc she herself was insecure..
That may be true, but was so not helpful for me when talking about her mental and emotional abuse..

[JellyBeans @JellybeansThe]

@StructuredSucc Not to mention the fact that to take the meds that you (can) take to help improve your executive functioning.. you actually need executive functioning skills to plan, remember and actually take those meds. Multiple times a day.

[JellyBeans @JellybeansThe]

What the f... happened to the Heinz BBQ sauce? Haven't bought it in ages but, it tastes overwhelmingly of eighter clover or allspice..
To those at @Heinz thinking "Nobody's gonna know".. we will always know!
#ActuallyAutistic
#Neurodivergent

[JellyBeans @JellybeansThe]

@adamfare1996 And I didn't even know it was a problem, before I experienced an alternative.
Much like any other thing one finds out as an nd person: that not all ppl struggle with X thing, and when I didn't have to face X thing, I noticed how much ut actually bothered me.

[JellyBeans @JellybeansThe]

@adamfare1996 I'm an adult and I'm not able to work due to prolonged MH issues. So things shouldn't really change that for me. I was still at home, still about as social as I would be.
But having a rule that forced society as a whole to respect personal space.. BIG impact.