A foreseen crash, and I can’t just brace myself for impact.
The scary part isn’t just running out of tricks. It’s wondering who you are without them. Because for some odd reason, the tricks actively determined the motion and direction I sailed all this while.
A shipwreck.
I feel it coming. Not déjà vu - something new I haven’t experienced before. And it’s lurking around the corner, inevitably close.
I feel like I’m running out of tricks, almost like I won’t pull a rabbit out the next time I reach into my hat.
At this state and rate,
The food seems tasteless.
Oh, the motion, rhythmless,
Really at the mercy of friction's tight grip.
Your fertile mind harbors lots,
Eventually, you'd reap lots.
You had a hand in this,
A catalyst of your own wear and tear.
......
It feels like paralysis sometimes, and it makes me sick to my stomach.
The first step used to be the hardest, but now even the very next step seems even harder.
The ideas and plans must be tired already from running through my mind for the umpteenth time now.
I just couldn't figure it out at the time, and the *what if* questions kept racing through my head at breakneck speed, like a spinning revolver.
And the answers, sadly, didn't come in the waiting, but only much later did they slowly unfold.
......
"Deserted"...was the first word that popped up when trying to describe it.
Of course, the abandoned structures lay there, signaling past meetings, and the receipts served as evidence of the aftermath.
It wasn't a case of disconnection... because that would've been too extreme.
These loops.
An endless bait feeding line of intertwined threads, each leading to another, that lures till further entanglement is reached.
You might want to stop now😶
It almost feels like the soul of it left the room.
And the atmosphere feels a little dodgy.
A cloudy sky, and the stars seem absent.
Will there be a thunderstorm brewing again? Because it always results in something more severe than a flood – a meltdown...😶
and another to integrate them into your being...making them a new foundation to operate from.
Consider an updated app on your phone - knowing its new features is one thing, but utilizing them seamlessly is another.
It's truly remarkable how a little exposure can profoundly impact a person, altering their mindset, challenging their core beliefs, and offering a fresh perspective on previously held assumptions.
Furthermore, what makes this even more thrilling is how easily one can lose sight of this transformative experience when failing to fully internalize the new perspective. Because it's one thing to be exposed to new knowledge or viewpoints and be amazed,