Jinji Shaw

“The desires of the soul are the prophets of the fate.” | Welcome to a psycho’s diary | just recording whatever intense in my mind

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But home is now behind you, the world is ahead.

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引导你愤怒、仇恨、抵制，但不让你知道到底恨什么。简中社媒太荒诞了

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原来侮辱一个政府的方式就是telling The truth
怎么可以有人傻逼成这样啊

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我不知道这个世界还能不能好起来。
民族主义已经把全球各地那么多傻逼的脑袋洗坏掉了。
好像只要认领一个共同的叙事就能消除每一个个体身上的痛苦，让每个奴隶有了共享剥削者的成就的错觉，吃饭睡觉从此变成奖励而不是与生俱来的权利，还要主动把对奴隶主的批评视为对自己的侮辱，互相监督举报以示忠诚

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姆巴佩提个表情包被禁真的太离谱了
2026年红卫兵还能返场
提个毛就说侮辱中国人了 媒体凭什么代替全体华人认领侮辱啊
国家领导人为什么不能提��？这是一个政府机构而不是邪教组织对吗？
天天你妈的小题大作 加深政治性抑郁
全世界民族主义都他妈像不断蔓延的脑残病毒 杀了我吧看到这种东西真的想跳了

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The cat I foster for a while is going to a new family soon. I’m not able to adopt him
Today I dreamed of kissing his face, and said, “ snacks must make kitty so happy.”
And he said, “ but kitty doesn’t live for snacks.”
Yeah, I never asked what he really wanted and that kills.

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Did my first time poem performance tonight, and strangely I feel like I was being myself on the stage and performing hard out of the stage.
I know something in my life has changed, I just don’t know how to name it.

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How come lots of people just shocked by Chinese lesbians, I thought that was normal before
但是太棒了，就这样宣传中国拉拉 yummy yummy🫪

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@Carroot9631 @andy88988696 刷到这种东西找不到人分享真是痛苦

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Identity 是行动的前提，还是行动的产物？
每次被老师称之为poet的时候都无比尴尬，心想等我写出很经典的作品并且被出版了才被称之为poet
问题就是我永远在等。如果我此刻承认自己是poet就意味着我的作品很烂，这也是我永远在幻想那么���职业却迟迟没有开始的原因吧。
但身份来自实践本身，并非成就。

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Woke up at the midnight and thinking about the reason I love cat so much:
I know most of the time you’re such a little shit but I still love you unconditionally.
That sounds like the love I always expected from myself.

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越说越感觉在描述自己嘿嘿嘿🫪

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突然发现我的审美偏好：小动物一样的人——
就是头发不太规整且毛茸茸，眼神像小动物一样干净且对世界充满好奇和善意。总之就是要长的像一个纯粹的柔软的小动物，靠近或远离一切都依靠小动物的本能，对世界充满浪漫幻想，有一颗非常非常真挚的心
（其实还是福瑞控对人类身份的妥协让步吧🫪

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我努力��学习用越来越详细的道德规训自己，我以为��是渴望秩序的，但秩序本身是这么无趣。
我甚至分不清我其实是享受混乱的，还是像认知心理学老师说的，有时我们说服自己去喜欢让自己痛苦的东西，直到真的开始享受。
享受道德张力也是，不是为了服从什么，只是了解和接受自己的阴暗面，探索人性的边界

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Among all the weekdays, I still hate Friday the most. It is so close to weekend but is still a weekday technically, brutal as other weekdays but just carrying the illusion of hope, make the waiting endless, in a lukewarm atmosphere.
I hope all the Fridays just disappear.

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@DephaseuR Lol 🆘
too much abstract content on Chinese social medias are just randomly shocking me to the hell, I wish I never understood Chinese sometimes 👁️👄👁️

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突然发现缓解limerence 最好的办法就是去关注政治，而且不是特定国家的政治（反而会触发政治性抑郁），而是地缘政治。突然拉远的宏观尺度会降低个体的痛苦体验值。可能跟饭桌上把政治话题当春药用的老登们是同一个逻辑吧。
小时候看的电视剧里说，“权力是最好的补品，大补。”

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Having a farm sounds even more hopeful. I really need to get grounding at the moment. Metaphysical stuff just drags me straight away to the dark moment, over and over again.
All I want is just to survive.
I have to admit that I’m not smart and can’t handle with associated despair

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I wonder if I should keep going at psychology, I am not even passionate as before.
And sometimes I wonder does it really matter for me to figure out how human beings work, or actually I’m more interested in feeling something rather than explaining something?

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I’m happy to study psychology and philosophy but hate assignments and further researches based on that. Shame to admit it, but I can see a boring life ahead if I work in these fields.
I love poetry, I love writing and love to feel instead of digging out the patterns in everyone.

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Have been dreaming about having a farm now since I watched Clarkson’s Farm.
Especially one that only plants flowers, must be delightful!!
But my dad says I’m way too creative to do these kind of things (he means in a negative way for sure
By watching this, I can see why now😅