Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD)

🚭 06.12.2011. “el niño” —Christian & bodybuilding. Love is a small seedling. The views expressed are my own. #utopiandreams #christendom

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

It was actually Fr. Frank who I made the confession to multiple times: God rest his soul. I was so young back then and I was merely in CCD and they were saying things like if you had any sexual fantasies especially homosexual ones, make the confession to the priest in Communion and Confirmation. But, I just kept it short.

I usually went to Confession to just say, “Forgive me Father. I know lust.” Because it was the truth and I was ashamed to describe them in detail. In addition, it is not like he would have a lengthy time to hear my Confession. Neither was the priest a psychologist or a psychiatrist.

In my growth, I did not know there was anything better than sex. Then, Jesus fed me bread and wine many years ago. It was then that I knew that the wine was so good, it was like I was swimming in absolute happiness or joy. After more than a decade with that encounter with Jesus, I remember the taste of the wine that he gives in his Last Supper as something comparable to sex, but even better.

I speak this out loudly because sex was something I could not pass as a test, and it was one reason along side the Scriptures in Abraham (when he would offer Isaac, and in which I thought that I was more righteous than God) which led me away from Jesus.

I feel free to stand in this field, and am grateful for Jesus to had spend some time with me and to give me a taste of his wine and bread. For this, I honor the Lord Jesus with fidelity and l love Jesus that he has all my heart and soul in his hands, with me for an offering. Jesus loves me, and so he must also love the Filipino people.

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

I feel like I can improve a lot in art. I wish I could also learn Theology with art especially the Old Testament which is quite challenging. Because, I think that the New Testament is pretty clear already (most of it), usually the parables are extremely beautiful when you are able to piece together the words and the right picture for it.

One parable, I do feel the need to explain is a potential message, that the Lord Jesus said in Matthew 13: 44-46: The kingdom of heaven is like a treasure hidden in a field where a man would find it, then hide it, and finally sells everything he has to buy that field.

This is personal but as an inspiration no less in which the Holy Spirit counseled me into piecing together in what I know “freedom” to be. This parable is a metaphor for “freedom.”

An open field when you should stand in one is liberating and freeing. So, this man in the parable sells everything for his freedom because he would find it in the open field. But, notice that this is only a similitude capturing the senses and yet to compare the likeness of heaven when Jesus would say: “The kingdom of heaven is like…”

Therefore, to conclude this understanding of what the Lord is proposing is that once we are to be with him, it will be eternal joy and happiness of the sorts because we would have made it in heaven to see him. I believe in this strongly that once I am united with Jesus, that I will be able to breathe at last and my happiness is him, as he is the Lord God Almighty.

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

@advoluntas So good.

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

Saint Teresa of Calcutta actually appeared to me in a dream. But, I am silenced unless the dream is real. Happy feast day Mother Teresa. No wonder I went to Church today: Her feast day is today.

[Dana Rachel 🇻🇦 @thyflameoflove]

Sometimes people will hurt you, disappoint you, or treat you in ways that are unfair. The Christian response is not to pretend the wrong was okay. It is to refuse to let someone else’s sin decide what kind of person you become.

📅 September 5: Feast day of St. Teresa of Calcutta

Jesus tells us to love our enemies and pray for those who hurt us. That does not mean staying in unsafe situations or avoiding healthy boundaries. It means choosing mercy over revenge and refusing to return cruelty for cruelty.

As St. Mother Teresa said, “Don’t treat people as bad as they are, treat them as good as you are.” Your kindness should come from who you are becoming in Christ, not from what another person deserves in the moment.

💬 When someone wounds you, do you think kindness is strength, weakness, or something much harder?

Someone may need this reminder before they respond out of anger today.

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

The Holy Spirit is a little different from the traditional paintings, here. People can be envious and I sense it sometimes especially religious people with a “holier than thou” mentality. On the other hand, there is such a reality like Jesus being holier than anyone. Jesus is he who makes what is holy. I am not lying about the Holy Spirit. My parents hated me showing this image for some reason, like they did not believe me. It hurt me when I had tried to sit with my family and to tell them I saw Jesus and no one believed me. It almost drove me crazy. That is why I liked Pope Francis so much, because of Saint Francis of Assisi. But Pope Francis passed away last year. I did my best and I will live through it. I love Jesus, and if I have to I would die for Jesus. Then again, if there is such a way to get home without dying then I am up for that. My “home” is with the Lord Jesus Christ. Yes, Jesus is Lord!

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

In the process, I saw the Holy Spirit with the Crown of Thorns. Does it look like a 🕊️? It bends and dances like a flame so it was difficult to put it in shape through a painting.

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

Paul (AD 33 or 36) would have seen the Cross; and then there is Constantine (312 AD) who would have seen it; maybe, Saint Joan of Arc but the report said it was a sword in the field. So, there have been three actual reports, if not only one. Constantine became the emperor. Saint Joan of Arc was burnt alive, which is extremely tragic. I do believe that Constantine saw the Cross, when in that process came the Apostle’s Creed. It is short and simple, and it is said in the seasons of the Roman Catholic Church.

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

Paul (AD 33 or 36) would have seen the Cross; and then there is Constantine (312 AD) who would have seen it; maybe, Saint Joan of Arc but the report said it was a sword in the field. So, there have been three actual reports, if not only one. Constantine became the emperor. Saint Joan of Arc was burnt alive, which is extremely tragic. I do believe that Constantine saw the Cross, when in that process came the Apostle’s Creed. It is short and simple, and it is said in the seasons of the Roman Catholic Church.

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

Remember when I said that the Ten Commandments were written in the heart of Moses? He had two tablets in his stony heart.

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

Jesus is the sword in the stone. The cross symbolizes a weapon in the netherworld, and the stone is the heart.

We plant Churches with a Saint because the saints battle for souls in the netherworld using Jesus as their sword. The saints fight for the dead, that they may have life over their Christian testimonies as they are in their sleep. I feel like the Catholic Church has watered down the miracles of God somewhat, and the miracles are less transparent and it can almost appear like they are praising persons of ordinary merit, that there are no miracles there. I would not go as far as making idols of so many, instead I would leave my life to just know one or three (to keep it under ten, maybe), or if you think you are worthy to live a virtuous life and to leave it in the fine hands of simply Jesus, then so be it. Finally, I recommend the Virgin Mary because lust is a genetic condition that is a challenge for so many, if not all.

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

Jesus is the sword in the stone. The cross symbolizes a weapon in the netherworld, and the stone is the heart.

We plant Churches with a Saint because the saints battle for souls in the netherworld using Jesus as their sword. The saints fight for the dead, that they may have life over their Christian testimonies as they are in their sleep. I feel like the Catholic Church has watered down the miracles of God somewhat, and the miracles are less transparent and it can almost appear like they are praising persons of ordinary merit, that there are no miracles there. I would not go as far as making idols of so many, instead I would leave my life to just know one or three (to keep it under ten, maybe), or if you think you are worthy to live a virtuous life and to leave it in the fine hands of simply Jesus, then so be it. Finally, I recommend the Virgin Mary because lust is a genetic condition that is a challenge for so many, if not all.

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

For a Templar’s Knight who was skilled in the art of war, he would have a spare sword, a main one Jesus, the other the repentant thief which is worn close to Jesus, and the dagger that is damned, which is concealed.

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

I went to Church today at Immaculate Conception, and I showed my CCD instructor (from years ago) my painting of Jesus and he was like: Wow 🤯, that looks like the Divine Mercy. That is what I thought too. I did not even use the Divine Mercy painting to paint it. I used this one.

I changed the sacred heart to have three crosses. Because in medieval times when you were a Knight’s Templar you had three swords: One long sword, a short sword carried on the other side of the waist, and a concealed dagger (which would have been ignoble to use), maybe?

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

I went to Church today at Immaculate Conception, and I showed my CCD instructor (from years ago) my painting of Jesus and he was like: Wow 🤯, that looks like the Divine Mercy. That is what I thought too. I did not even use the Divine Mercy painting to paint it. I used this one.

I changed the sacred heart to have three crosses. Because in medieval times when you were a Knight’s Templar you had three swords: One long sword, a short sword carried on the other side of the waist, and a concealed dagger (which would have been ignoble to use), maybe?

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

You can probably judge with my signature here that I have a music obsession. This painting is the Holy Spirit, it is a flame 🔥. It is suppose to flicker and dance like you would see on a wick of a 🕯️. It is so beautiful, and I was hoping God would allow me to learn how to sing and dance by signing it with my name like that, but I am not getting as far as I want to apparently. I feel like I have reached my limit, that I would need to have “formal” schooling and advance instructions to see any improvement regarding my oil-painting techniques, and singing well. What can I trade to get these talents, and to have some money in order to paint, and to sing better? I have given nearly everything, save this one painting of the Holy Spirit that is dated June 2011, along with the image of Jesus that says: “Write your name in my heart and never see death.” It is quite challenging to do everything on my own. I want to hang on to these images because it has carried me through and through from all my hardships. But, maybe, with talents I am asking too much… 😭

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

Sometimes, I wonder if maybe a Church should house my paintings. My studio is small, it is in my room where I sleep. It can be hard to paint because of the chemicals that have an odor. But, I do like the smell of turpentine sometimes, 😭. Lmao 🤣. I switched over to walnut oil but I miss the smell of pine trees.

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

Here is “The Lion’s Den.”

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

I really like this one Our Lady of Perpetual Help art, with the crowns of the Virgin Mary and Jesus Christ. I want to do a replica that says: “AM I NOT HERE WITH JESUS, I WHO AM YOUR MOTHER?” in Roman capitals.

So what happened was, I saw Jesus in 2011 or around that time. Then, the Virgin Mary gives me a pink rose in my dream around 2014/2015 when I had asked Saint Therese to give me a rose from Mother Mary’s heart. If I made it up, and had any delusions of grandeur whatsoever, and ate a lie I would have said she gave me a golden rose from what Saint Bernadette has seen of her! I am not a fraud and a liar when it comes to saying things like I saw God.

Anyway, this was my first drawing of Jesus I gave to Pope Benedict XVI the one that looked like a cross in an eye, to which he resigned to (unfortunately). I am really proud of the last cross which I gave to Pope Francis. I ruined the painting with the tallies and I regretted putting it on there. The tallies only carry a meaning to me. Pope Francis never asked me anything regarding the meaning of the tallies so I never got to explain it. I dislike seeing the tallies so I just use this old photo of what I call, The Lion’s Den.

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

I am about to find out if it works: “How to pronounce R in French from Learn French With Alexa” <https://t.co/XIQ9sADsd9> via @YouTube

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

The word -ac is -ak, which is Ilocano or Ilokano for “me.” “One is me” which Isa-ac means, or “I am one.” In the Jewish translation, it means differently as “He who laughs.” Abraham’s God is one.

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

One thing about the Filipino language is that Isaac the one Abraham was to offer, his name, is a Filipino word, it means “One I am.” “Isa-ak” is a Filipino word. Told you, Jesus loves Filipinos.

[Johnmurf Aguinaldo de Vera (JAD) @JmDV808]

One thing about the Filipino language is that Isaac the one Abraham was to offer, his name, is a Filipino word, it means “One I am.” “Isa-ak” is a Filipino word. Told you, Jesus loves Filipinos.