saying she didn’t want to cause problems with the other girls In April my year went to Barcelona for a school trip and she told me I was being too clingy, but she only told me after I had to basically pry it out of her,
I detest talking to people of my own generation (I am 21) because it constantly feels like a generation of humans that have been cowed into not taking THEIR OWN SPARK OF INFINITY THAT IS THEIR LIFE seriously, or that it would be "cringe" for them to be authentic.
Long before the guests arrived, long before the candles were ever lit, the flat had that specific, hollow chill - the kind that settles deep into your bones and stays there, no matter how many sweaters you put on.