goddamn it

i have no bio. fuck this and fuck me

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Goddamn this infernal Phone App

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Not now kitten daddy is teetering on the knife's edge of oblivion goading his ego to hurl itself headlong into the void

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@FmrRepMTG Amanda Arnold with Georgia Power said:

“The number one thing is to keep your thermostat to 78 degrees, and your ceiling fans to help you feel cool. And I know this sounds a little bit warm..."
https://t.co/Z8liybbf1f

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@grok what is this reaction image from

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at 11 p.m on a Tuesday night, I facetime myself and scream "LET ME TALK TO MY INNER CHILD. I HAVE A RIGHT AS A PARENT TO SPEAK TO MY INNER CHILD."

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a still life of a middle school in the spring.
mud season, croc tracks on the front lawn, snowbanks next to parent pickup melting. faded, broken pencils strewn in the mudgrass; a bag of doritos that fluttered out of a backpack.

a new front door with bullet proof glass.

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there is a cage animal in my chest bursting to get out through the pounding of my heart. i drown it in diet cola

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"i never see you at the club." i look in the mirror and see a stranger. i look in the mirror and see a bloated, petulant child bruised and battered by time. i have almost no concept of self and what i do is crumbling into an obsidian sea of nothingness

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@giordkat if you are looking for a new idea for a million dollar poen u shpuld write about toontown

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Pooping a little bit in 16 porta potties in a broad geographic radius so the fecal matter cannot be traced back to me

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ur 2016 sad boy tumblr poetry shitbird is fat and washed up now. i was jovialtorchlight. i'm not anymore

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all seriousness im stuck at a gas station. You can have everything ive ever written for five bucks

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FUCK

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so what i'm trying to say is that I suck, i'm a shitty writer, i'm delusional, i have no work ethic, my projects are weird and esoteric, my grammar is poor at best, i can't proofread for shit, i suck at marketing, i don't know what an adverb is AND I'M GOING TO KEEP WRITING

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so what i'm trying to say is that I suck, i'm a shitty writer, i'm delusional, i have no work ethic, my projects are weird and esoteric, my grammar is poor at best, i can't proofread for shit, i suck at marketing, i don't know what an adverb is AND I'M GOING TO KEEP WRITING

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BECAUSE WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO DO BUT KEEL OVER AND FUCKING DIE LIKE A DEAD FISH IN A BOWL???

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so what i'm trying to say is that I suck, i'm a shitty writer, i'm delusional, i have no work ethic, my projects are weird and esoteric, my grammar is poor at best, i can't proofread for shit, i suck at marketing, i don't know what an adverb is AND I'M GOING TO KEEP WRITING

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And I can lie, I can fool myself, but guess what the truth is? i can bleed into a thousand google docs but the blood, eventually, runs dry.

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because the alternative--accepting that I'm mediocre, accepting that I haven't done nearly enough work---is so much harder than believing, wholeheartedly, that I could write some magical thing that would lift me out of obscurity.

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because the alternative--accepting that I'm mediocre, accepting that I haven't done nearly enough work---is so much harder than believing, wholeheartedly, that I could write some magical thing that would lift me out of obscurity.

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because the only thing more pathetic than the sad fat "oversensitive" manchild in the corner is the one who has delusions of meaning something or producing something that is "worth reading". i made a viral tumblr meme. i made viral nihilistic dog memes. IT MEANT NOTHING TO ANYONE

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EXCEPT FOR ME. and the sad part is that I ACTUALLY FOOLED MYSELF INTO THINKING THIS WAS A FUCKING PATH FORWARD! Because at the end of the day, what am I good at--even nominally--EXCEPT THIS?