I share this post in earnest and (what may prove a naive) hope that a few people caught in the situation I’m about to describe will hear instead of rushing to the usual tropes, criticisms and caricatures. For what it’s worth, I offer this in good faith.
Between 2016 and 2022, I faced a test of the genuineness of my faith so large and consequential, I’m almost at a loss to think of the right adjectives to describe it. It might not have been so big to someone else but it involved so much of my Christian identity, it was all but existential. Well more than that. It was a dying.
It is this test that helps me understand why people who seem deeply devoted to the Lord Jesus and hold the scriptures in highest esteem also hold to a system, institution or leader no matter what they do and defend a side or individual to a degree that is baffling.
I can tell you why because I had to face every bit of it. Identity, community, camaraderie, what we’ve known and loved, what part of it we still love, the people we loved, the people we still love, reputation, what people will think, how you will be judged and condemned and thrown over to the other side who doesn’t want you either. And to whom you also do not align and would not belong. Friendships. How you will be misunderstood and misrepresented. How adrift and alone you will feel. How disliked.
And then there’s this and it would be a mistake to minimize it: your JOB. Your source of income. Your vocation.
This is the part of the crisis I most write these words to convey because I think they are most in play for many right now, whether in media, ministry or politics.
Let me try to put this in the words that were constantly resonant in my spirit in those years. And to this day.
Though you have no other place to go, Beth, and no place to fit and it not only MAY have financial repercussions but WILL have financial repercussions to the ministry and to your family and will also make them targets and none of it will ever look the same or be the same, will you choose what you believe to be right and put everything else in your vocational life at risk?
This is what is at risk for many people whose professional reputations and positions are tied up with leaders, institutions and political parties. Mine was, too. The cost is enormous and the options are often untenable. And so there we are.
Having to cast ourselves on the mercy of God. Not for a third way. But as THE ONLY WAY. The only truth. The only life.
I’ve made multiple errors in judgment. Jumped too quickly to condemn. Spoken wrongly. Remained silent wrongly and confusingly. I never get it completely together.
But what I will tell you is that I believe we are meant first and foremost to call out our own house, our own side, and our own identity group for its mind-boggling hypocrisy. These were my people. Evangelicals. Conservatives.
Claim what you will but I know who I am:
I am pro life from conception to casket.
I am pro small government.
I am pro godliness and the pursuit of a holy life.
I am pro marriage and family and pro-those God calls to remain single and sanctified and I’m deeply thankful for them.
I am pro traditional sexual ethics.
I am pro love of God and love of neighbor and the dignity of every person as an image bearer of Christ.
I am pro love all.
I am pro church. I believe in the community of the saints.
I am pro Bible study to the death and believe the aim of all discipleship is to know and love and follow and emulate Jesus Christ.
I am pro gospel. Dear God in heaven, I am pro gospel. I believe there is one name by whom we must be saved. Jesus.
What I am not is pro Trump.
Wasn’t pro Clinton. Wasn’t pro Biden. But those were not the candidates many in the world that I loved so much were cheering on.
I accept that Donald Trump is my president. I pray for him on a regular basis. I’m a law abiding citizen and pay my taxes. But I believe Trump fosters something in people that makes them lose their way.
Some hard truths about this whole dust-up:
• The MAGA ecosystem has a contingent regularly produces and shares racially charged and downright racist content with no accountability or repercussions.
• Truth Social, where all of this happened, is owned by the President and full of racially charged content.
• It’s so prevalent that the President’s own algorithm fed it to him.
• The President and his Press Secretary have refused to offer any apology even up until now.
• There is zero chance some low level staffer is running the President’s personal account, his MAIN avenue for communication.
• Before rushing to give credit for deleting it, countless supporters were rushing to defend it.
• Far too many people are refusing to demand an apology because they’re afraid of being seen as “woke.” The progressive gaze is not the only controlling gaze.
• A sincere apology early probably would have helped greatly, but the president is a man who by his own admission has “never asked for forgiveness.” He’s acting consistently here.
• A potential result is that this is a galvanizing event so that even those who are now staking their credibility on standing with the President well now lose the very things they wanted if there is a wipeout in the midterm elections, which strategists on the right are terrified of currently.
• An even worse result is that once again, relationships are being strained and even good causes harmed because of a small group of people who have a total lack of impulse control and who tolerate what ought never to be tolerated.
And after all of this, it’s those of us who speak up against it that will be told we are the problem. I am a conservative. But if we don’t deal with this underbelly of racist content on the post-conservative right, that failure will come at a great cost.
Kirby Smart is now 116–20 as Georgia’s head coach.
Smart took over at his alma mater in 2016. This is his 10th season, and his 116 wins are the most by any FBS coach through their first 10 seasons in the modern era.
He’s headed to his eighth SEC Championship Game and aiming for a fourth College Football Playoff National Championship appearance — and potentially a third title.
These are the glory days. #godawgs❤️🖤
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As much as Lawson Luckie could’ve been the big man on any campus, he’s always prioritized an even bigger role, as a big brother to Cannon. He tells @JenLada how Georgia football made his dream a reality ❤️