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22, She/they 🌈 pro-recovery
Diary for me, if you find it triggering pls block me 💗 LOOKING FOR MOOTS
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TW ed, mental illness

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Just came here to say I'm okay, I'm just finishing my engineering diploma project and essay and I'm super busy

So my lovely friends I'll be back but I still have over a month of work left

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I'll try to distract myself with work. And I probably won't eat anything else bedside some strawberries today. It's gonna be okay

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I went to a cafe during my break to work on my diploma and decided to treat myself to an almond crossaint. It was with some kind of sweet and sticky paste inside. I didn't notice before. I ate it anyway but now I feel bad. I hate being seen while eating. I was trying to be brave

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I'm not ready to recover but I hate how much I'm missing in life and how it makes easy things hard

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@lambdacor3 Me too! I'd love too!!!

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Pictures from botanical garden today

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@bloatedkiwi It's pizza week!!! Yaaay

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@bloatedkiwi Aaaaagdhhhdgdh so adorable!!! It looks amazing

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@bloatedkiwi I know😭 And on top of that I feel so much pressure to get skinny nad pretty because everyone in his family is GORGEOUS. Our whole friend group from high school used to joke that his parents are personification of dilf and milf

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I wanted to be brave and asked my bf if we can order pizza in the evening. It was so stressful
In the past whenever he asked me I said yes but couldn't force myself to eat even a piece

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I ate a second one to make sure and I totally don't have any urge to eat more. And usually I LOVE spicy things. It's not bad per say but it's not something worth 12zł for such a small amount

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I tried takis fuego

First of all. I was surprised how sour it is
Second: I don't get the hype

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my dream since I was 13 is to get a breast reduction. I'm so jealous of straight lean bodies with no curves no fat

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I'll never be ethereal even if I become skinny. I just want to look like an unknown beautiful creature that appears in a mist almost like a ghost

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but I have such bones structure and fat muscle distribution I'll never be thin and not curvy. I hate it I hate it I hate it

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@bloatedkiwi I have holidays in September with him and his whole family (11 or 12 people) There's so many of them I haven't met before and some of them I barely know. I need to somehow be okay with eating with them so it was my first attempt at getting comfortable

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@bloatedkiwi the photo is so cute lmao
💓💓🫂🥺Talking to him in the evening helped. He was so chill and normal about my weird behavior nad that was exactly what I needed

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@bloatedkiwi I'm sure you've lost. 🫂It'd be scientifically impossible for you not to. And I've never seen a restrictive ed person who thought they're small then in reality. So don't worry I'm sure you've lost💓 I'm sorry you're having a hard time ily