I don't hate socializing. I just love being home. Where it's quiet. Safe. Soft. No small talk. No noise. No pretending to be someone I'm not. Just me. Reading. Thinking. Listening to music. Staring at the wall. Watching old movies. Being bored. And feeling life deeply. Some people call it boring. To me, it's where I finally hear myself again.
There’s a certain type of privacy & alone time I require in order for me to feel like I’m still functioning and operating as an individual. I cannot do the codependency or enmeshment.