"what made you finally detach?"
i asked myself if this is how i want to be loved for the rest of my life. if the silence, the half effort, and the constant feeling of being unseen were all i would ever receive. i realized love shouldn't feel like begging for small pieces of care. it shouldn't feel lonely even when someone is beside you. little by little, something inside me grew tired. not angry, not bitter, just tired. that was the moment i slowly let go. because i finally understood that staying where i feel unvalued would only teach my heart to accept less than it deserves.
I wish I could explain how tiring it is to live inside a head that never fully rests. Even during happy moments, there are thoughts, never ending cycle