As someone who did, through immense effort, become socially likable, it infuriates me when notionally "autists" are like, oh, you just need to get over the initial discomfort and talk to folks, build those skills. No, you've gotta lie through your teeth or they'll skin you alive.
stop trying to kill your demons. give them a job.
* take the anger to the gym
* turn obsession into building something
* clean when your mind feels chaotic
* make art out of heartbreak
* let regret make you kinder
* use jealousy to figure out what you actually want
* turn resentment into boundaries
* let anxiety push you to prepare, not panic
* use your need for control to build better routines
* pour loneliness into learning how to enjoy your own company