Today is the day that I got on Twitter the first time. Happy Twitter anniversary to me I guess. Just a few more days until all of us escape from 2020. :)
Artists. Please stop waiting until you’re “good enough” and draw whatever you have always dreamed of drawing.
If you keep telling yourself you are never good enough, you will never start it. How can you improve if you have never even begun? We all start somewhere!
hey.
I've had a rough past week or so.
Between rough diagnoses, the sudden rule change with section 8 and income increasing my rent, and stupid health insurance issues, I've been reviewing my prices and stipulations.
This is my full time job. I cannot work, and I take care of my disabled family for no extra pay. Making 3D hentai is how I get my money. Not only that, but I cannot drive and getting a job would actually cause us to lose the house and my benefits including health insurance (which I'll need for my new "Don't die" medicine). This is not negotiable. I have been dealing with stress over all of this, and I owe so many people as is. I've been fluctuating prices based on a variety of things including my family's cost of living and my own bills. I usually need to make around $500 a month, just to get bills dealt with, all of which are during different times of the month.
When we moved here, my dad had to take out a loan just to get us in. He's still paying it off, and since December of 2024, I've been paying the electric bill which fluctuates often thanks to the shitty weather here. It can go as high as over 280 in the summer, and as low as 140 in the winter. I struggle every month to get that made, and I have tried to make efforts to make more money than usual from paid works to ease the next month only for it to be even more than the last. Today we got news that my own SSDI from my own disabilities are now going to be counted for income, and affects the rent we owe. It's supposedly going up "considerably", but they didn't give a number. We already pay around $500 in rent, and we struggle every month afterwards, despite this.
Ever since we moved into this place it's been financial disaster after financial disaster. I'm only one person, and I have even less time now to work on what I want. I play video games and sometimes stream to get my mind off shit. I feel absolutely horrid when I can't work on what people paid me for because that's THEIR money they busted their ass for, and I can just sit on it like it's no consequence. that alone has affected my mentality the worst.
In the future, paid works slots will be restricted to two per person and most likely increased due to the increase of rent, however much it's "considerably" increased. I will also limit it to only 10 each month as well. If a render is 50 bucks, and assuming each slot gets filled, that'd be just enough to help my parents a little more, but still wouldn't be enough to get the electric bill, assuming the rent goes up by more than $250. So I'm just kind of stuck...
So with that said. I may look for another route for help. I'm making calls and I'm making moves and if they don't work, I'll most likely open a GFM. We can't afford a "Considerably" increased price in rent and we sure as fuck can't afford to move.
To those that I owe. I apologize DEEPLY for not getting to work on what you've paid for. It sickens me that I've blueballed and kept you waiting. I hope, for both our sakes, you can forgive me. If there's anything to make up for it, please let me know. I don't know how exactly I could do it since I'm still in a really bad funk and have lost almost all my motivation to even make for myself. And please, let me know what I owe. I've been dealing with really bad memory loss because of depression.
Thank you, for the future, the past, and present.
I love my friends so much. If you had told me years ago I’d have friends like these, I would’ve never believed you. It took a long time to find them, but it was so worth it
I accidentally forgot my Twitch affiliate anniversary 🥲 I'll see if I can plan something when I'm back!
In the meantime, I'm going to plug in my Throne and then disappear into the abyss because I have no idea how to without feeling like a moocher