𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재

༒︎ 𝐝iscipline in silence, victory in 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐨𝐬.

[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

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[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

I told you.
I don’t fight 𝐟𝐚𝐢𝐫. I fight to 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐬𝐡.

[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

stifling a yawn.
stepping outside his house with his keys in his right hand, pressing the button so his car unlocks with a little beep.

[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

a small chuckle as he’s suddenly embraced, arms snaking around her tiny frame instinctively.

holding her close.

“You’re still as excitable as I left you.”

[❛⸗ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝓝𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻𝑾𝑨𝑳𝑲𝑬𝑹. @MediumLamia]

⠀
He isn’t a problem that needs solving.

But ..

Casually throws her arms around him, smooching his cheek. He’s been missed!
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[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

👀

[❛⸗ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝓝𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻𝑾𝑨𝑳𝑲𝑬𝑹. @MediumLamia]

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… :)
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[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

yujin.

[❛⸗ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝓝𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻𝑾𝑨𝑳𝑲𝑬𝑹. @MediumLamia]

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MIN-JAE !!
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[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

I’m not a problem you can solve.

[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

@DEEPFANGS sleepy look my ass.
he’s very awake.
pfft.
rubbing his eyes to try and regain more focus.
a sigh.

“You don’t want to know what I think of myself.”

[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

@DEEPFANGS aaaish.
he’s lifting his hands to massage his temples.
there may be a hint of a tiny smile.

“cheeky fucker.
are you saying I’m old?”

[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

good fucking morning
from one broken person to another.

[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

@SULJIBJUIN — take the pain away.”

he reaches out to gently rub his palm up and down the others back.

“Let me run you a bath or something…
You can relax and clean up your smudged make-up.”

[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

@SULJIBJUIN his mind was on other things. rationalising strategy over anything else. Perhaps if he didn’t track down his dad then he’d have memorised his number, but he didn’t think he’d need to. he didn’t know he’d have to ditch his phone.

“no, I hurt you. and I wish I could —

[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

@SULJIBJUIN selfish? no, not quite.
but Seyoon should surely realise this abandonment wasn’t done on purpose.
if he knew his number off by heart he would have called. god, he would have called so many damn times.

“if it makes you feel any better, I can’t forgive myself.
for hurting you.”

[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

@SULJIBJUIN despite not being looked at, Minjae still looks at Seyoon. with a myriad of feelings.
with regret, with guilt, with pain, with longing.

but if this is goodbye, he doesn’t want to do it from across the room.
so he’s closing the distance and sitting next to him on the couch.

[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

@SULJIBJUIN healing isn’t linear.
and he might not ever heal from the mental scars. he’s damaged goods.

Finally managing to stop pacing, leaning his back against the wall opposite Seyoon.
arms folded across his chest.

“maybe you deserve better than what I can offer you.”

[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

@SULJIBJUIN do you know why his dad wasn’t successful? Because there’s only one victor in a death match.

“I had to 𝐤𝐢𝐥𝐥 my own father before he got the chance to 𝐤𝐢𝐥𝐥 ( me ).
Even my time in the military wasn’t as fucking traumatic.”

he’s turning away and pacing the room.

[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

@SULJIBJUIN it is all that matters.
it would break him completely if Seyoon refused to ever see him again.

a scoff at the latter, yeah that hurt.

“It almost sounds like you wanted him to be.”

[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

@SULJIBJUIN — And do you know what happened when I finally tracked him down?
the fucking bastard tried to 𝐤𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐞.“

[𝐌𝐈𝐍-𝐉𝐀𝐄. 서민재 @KataEdge]

@SULJIBJUIN he’s got it. it’s all good.
he’s got good self control.
ex military and all that. he’s disciplined his urges.
is it weird? maybe he wants answers.

“I tracked him across the globe.
I had to ditch my phone, and I didn’t memorise your number. —