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cyberspace illusion ׂׂૢ non edtwt dni

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

ive been trying to get better but ofc i cant help but fall back but my limit was me uploading a photo on ig (i never do yhat)and someone telling me i look much thicker I WANTEd to cry sososossososo bad

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

LIFE HAS NOT GOTTEN ANY BETTER SINCE I LEFFT EDTWT WHO TF LIED TO ME

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

damn now my dad is printing a calorie chart and he is gonna hang it on the kitchen

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

UGH I HATE HER WHEN I TOLD HER THE PLUM SHE ATE IS LIKE 30 CALS (it was very small) SHE WAS LIKE "oh that's too much"

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

coming back just to say that my mom relapsed so im gonna go back to restricting and fasting instead of just exercising a lot 💪💪💪 mom eating 600 cals a day is too triggering

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

omg i really miss using my ed account but edtwt is lowkey getting really boring

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

edtiktok useful for once

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

im so close to another atremot im not even kidding help 🤣 i always feel like mob psycho when im like this it's like every day my percentage increases slightly and then it just goes uo to 100 or above and explodes and

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

i am at my breaking point

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

@heartfiliaspo not good but definitely better than regular in most aspects ! (from what i researched)

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

my hw today was abt diet sodas vs normal sodas and i think this is really interesting
according to an investigation and the resukts if some studies, "oxidation of fats is much higher with diet coke than even water" "oxidation of carbs is lower" "diet cone does not stimulate +

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

insulin production" and also there weren't significant differences between water and diet coke in this aspect. and lastly diet coke "seems to increase resting energy expenditure" tho to affirm if the drink accelerates your metabolism, more scientific proof is needed

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

saw another one that was 2,036 and it was just meat and idk what else this is honestly surprising anyways i ordered something that was 178

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

THE CALS HELPPPP "1,368 kcal" WTF ITS JUST A SANDWICH

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

i might order noodles or sushi idk

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

today when i woke up i couldnt even feel my lips bc of how dey they were, thought my mouth was open until i touched it and realized my lips were just extremely dry

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

esoecially bc from both parts of my family i have relatives woth diabetes and who have died from diabetes and become insulin dependent so im also worried hahaha i dont qant diabetes im ngl

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

sorry for being gone lately ive been dizzy and busy with exams stuff and a competition and studying and ive been feeing so bad i fainted the other day and ive been so thirsty so im gonna get my sugar checked and some analysis done in a few days bc my mom is worried

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

i have an exam tomorrow so i aye dinner and i'll probably have breakfast too omg im so scared i want to do good so bad

[rii 🦦 @kelcaIs]

time ti sleep good night it's too late already