as soon as a nigga start tellin u the shit u spend your money on is unnecessary fuckin run he trynna gaslight u into settling for peanuts!!!!!!!!! Im tellin u he is!!!!!!!
Hating you would be easy. But honestly? I just pity you. Because your biggest punishment isn't me, It's you. It's having to carry the same unresolved patterns into every relationship you touch. The constant controlling. The manipulation. The shifting stories depending on who's listening. The inability to be honest when honesty would cost you something. You call it love whenever someone gives you attention. You call it connection whenever someone validates your ego.
But love without integrity is just attachment dressed up in prettier clothes. You expect loyalty while moving disloyally. You expect trust while being untrustworthy. You expect respect while giving very little of it and somehow, when things fall apart, there's always someone else to blame. Never the choices. Never the patterns. Never the person staring back at you in the mirror. That's the part that fascinates me the most. How every relationship has a different cast of characters.
Yet the same problems somehow keep appearing. The same conflicts. The same chaos. The same disappointments. The same broken trust. At some point, maturity requires asking a difficult question: "What if the problem isn't everyone else?" Because growth begins where blame ends and accountability begins when excuses run out. The truth is, karma isn't always some dramatic event waiting around the corner.
Sometimes karma is living the same painful cycle over and over because you're unwilling to confront the part you play in creating it. Sometimes karma is never finding peace because you keep bringing the same unresolved version of yourself everywhere you go and that sounds far more exhausting than anything I could ever wish on you.
God, help me release what I can't control. If this chapter is over, give me the strength to accept it. If healing takes time, walk with me through it. And help me focus on the life You have in front of me instead of the one behind me. Amen 🙏🏾
i saw a girl on tiktok who said "accountability is so important to me. nobody's perfect, but don't try to flip the script and make my reaction the issue when your actions lit the match" i felt this to the core.
I can’t wait to find more of my people. Thoughtful, hopeful, funny people. People who see my light, but also shine just as bright as I do. It’s like tryna find a needle in a haystack, but at least I know I can still find it