Everyone always tell me I’m a vibe and cool asf to be around and then go ghost on me. That shit really be playing with my mentality! This is why I’m becoming more socially awkward the older I get because I honestly don’t know what the fuck people actually want from me.
All I want is a lil boo thang without all the complications of having to be in a relationship. I just need a nigga I can chill with, laugh at dumb shit while getting high.
I stay to myself, it’s honestly the best way to be, no one is genuinely anymore. People just get what they can out of you. No one wants human interaction and companionship now. I honestly hate that I’m so open with people but no one can give me the energy back in return.
I don’t feel love, no real friends, I’m not close to really anyone in my family and I feel stuck. I have gave up on life and don’t want to do this anymore.
I turn 38 tomorrow, I’m giving myself two more years, if I don’t see any progress in my life. I’m honestly just going to end it. I know that sounds morbid but I’m sick of being on this planet.
I’m so sick of being niggas conquest! This is why I don’t fuck off a lot. The same niggas that will swear up and down they want you bad as fuck is the same nigga that won’t say a word to you once they get what they want out of you. FUCK ALL YOU NIGGAS REAL TALK!