Kyle Barkmann

Freidenker. Realist. Ästhet. Individualist. - Submissive with a mind, serving with a smile – loyal, listening, learning. Continuously kneeling to New York.

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🖤 The Path – A Devotional Chronicle

This diary is not for me.
It’s for Her.

Each night in July,
I kneel. I wait. I crave.
No release. No commands. No noise.

Only longing.
Only ritual.
Only reverence.

A pair of nylons.
A closed body.
An open heart.
A dedicated mind.

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@FCogitanz @TDrygala Negativ. Selbst Genderbefürworter verzichten bei zusammengesetzten Substantiven in aller Regel darauf.

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@MdmedeTournelle Die Dame dunkelhaarig? Dann hätte ich die beiden am Samstag Nachmittag gesehen.

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@MdmedeTournelle Ich danke Ihnen für die Erläuterungen. Mit Wien hätten wir eine Gemeinsamkeit. Vielleicht ergibt sich ja mal eine gemeinsame Tasse Tee dort.

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@MdmedeTournelle Erlauben Sie mir die Frage, welche Stadt Sie mit Blick auf Substanz favorisieren und Ihren Ansprüchen gerecht wird?

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@MdmedeTournelle Die fehlende Substanz hat nach meinem Dafürhalten eher mit der Stadt zu tun. Selbst auf der Boundcon meine ich Schicki-Micki-Flair zu spüren. Für Substanz und Tiefe ziehe ich Berlin vor. Was meinen Sie, Verehrteste?

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Day 313

The Mirror

I sit before the mirror
made up, dressed
I recognize my face
and at the same time
I do not

the tears come without resistance
not from sadness but recognition

as if something hidden for years
has stepped in front
for the first time
I feel complete

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Day 312

Sir

Dressed in black leather
He stands before me and I kneel
I feel myself serving
attention narrowing
around the need to please

another thought
how would it feel if You were there
watching, guidingshaping the scene
until even this became a form
of serving You

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Day 311

Friends

It is different with those who know me

a hesitation, a slight shift
as if something no longer fits
the shape they held of me

not rejection
but the moment before it

where doubt enters
and I cannot tell
how far it will go

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Day 310

Emergence

what once stayed hidden
begins to take shape in the open
I notice it in small shifts

a detail that remains
instead of being removed again

less correction or holding back
and with that something settles

not perfectly or finally
but no longer an exception

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Day 309

Release

the mind narrowed around it
nothing else coming close
everything aligned toward it

and then release
what felt absolute loses hold
but something remains

how completely it shaped my focus
how little else was allowed
a force simple, direct
but certain to return

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Day 308

Loyalty

Because I know for whom I am moving

the more closely I follow Her
the more clearly I recognize
what matters to Her
what She notices immediately
nothing scattered or divided

only the feeling
of moving in one direction
when no part of me is elsewhere

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Day 307

Anger

She said if She slapped him
it would not be in the fun way
and I understood

I recognize it in Her quickly
the altered tone
I do not want distance from it
the urge to kneel, to come closer

instead I remain far away
only able to stay present
with Her inside it

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Day 306

Yes

Three letters on a small display
they alter the direction of the day

I watch them enter me
the body responding
before reflection arrives

Her decision settles into mine
I feel it move through me

and with it the strange comfort
of no longer needing
to decide alone

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Day 305

Kneeling

Kneeling before Her
changes the meaning of the moment
attention gathers in the body

I feel Her presence
settling into posture and skin
there at Her feet in stillness
and willing placement

I leave those moments clearer
closer to the shape I was meant to take

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Day 304

Peace
She is sitting on the sofa
legs crossed in Her heels

I move to the floor and take my place
the body finding its position
without hesitation

everything that was restless
loses its hold
nothing to decide or to carry
only this
the certainty of being where I belong

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@stagerbn Frag ich mich auch gerade.

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@MissDevianz Unter dem Tisch zu liegen und ihre Füße zu liebkosen.