The closest thing to heaven in this life is being needed by someone you actually give a shit about. its what evolution built us for, to care for something small and vulnerable that trusts us with its life and watch it grow into something that carries our blood beyond our death. thats the best medicine the worlds got. just staring into the eyes of your own blood and bone and saying yeah this is my job, this is my mark, this is what i was put here to do and ill be fucked if i dont do it right
My initial thought after seeing someone wear their marathon medal the day after is pity.
Then I realized caring about things (broadly) is so much cooler than not.
six months ago, was on the amtrak cafe cart (❤️) from DC to New York, started chatting with the lady across the booth. she was in her late 30s, recently married. how much she’d been through. just had her first kid and how excited she was - but her point above all, was really that it’s never over
she asked, what’s furthest thing current you would do? and I said “probably run a marathon”
that shit is never happening
never ran before. these runners are crazy. they’re all running from something. it’s all a little crazy
but in six months, i’m gonna run the marine corps marathon in DC
there’s tremendous power in speaking things out loud
with enough repetition you do speak it into existence
so I did 1 mile
and then 3.
how about 5?
if you can do 5 why not 7
let’s try 10
aight I’ll register for this marathon thing. it’s 5 months out, whatever
let’s do 12.
and then it becomes from a thing you do, to sort of you
we’re gonna 15
i’m tired I don’t want to wake up at 6am to run 18
brother it’s in the calendar, you don’t have a choice
damn that worked
how about 20?
you build belief
you pile in leg day, eating right, it rewires your brain
everything becomes a lot less difficult
the fun thing about running (would have never believed I’d say that) is it’s 100% you
it’s 100% all in your control. the deadline is there and you can’t move
you can do hard things, you should hard things, because what else is there to do
all you gotta do is just keep stepping