Ark after Dark

NSFW account of @PieArk. What started as an unapologetic horny account has turned into a place for me to be unapolgetically depressed. Enter at your own risk.

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

Being able to get laid like, reliably is so surreal after dying from touch starvation for years. Having something close to a partner is amazing, and the fact that they're so hot I can't stop jacking off about it is even better. Fuck they should just kill me.

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

@MilkteaMomoko Can't relate, I've managed to maintain a respectable weight since losing it all last year. I'm like 2 lbs over my ideal but honestly that's damn fine to maintain for a year straight so I'm not beating myself up over it. (Also you look so good literally why are you tripping)

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

Nothing like having a "I'm gonna die alone" day and then seeing two of your friends back home got engaged.

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

I can't offer anyone anything. And nobody needs me. I realize that today.

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

Rough one today. I've spent most of the day crying on and off. I have nothing to offer anyone. I'm not good at anything, I'm ugly, I try so fucking hard to better myself but it's not enough and I know it'll never be enough.

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

Turns out the date I was excited about was not a date. She was very nice about it and we still had a lovely evening but god damn I am a fucking moron for getting my hopes up.

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

So um, I know I don't typically post a lot of positivity around these parts, it's usually sexual frustration or outright depression but...I have a date tomorrow night. With a really cute girl I met at D&D. And I'm really excited. :)

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

I guess this is really what I should be focusing on. I've been making really good progress on myself. Usually when it's this bad I don't think I can be loved. Right now I see a throughline, I see possibilities. That's better than before at least. It's something good.

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

Just having a day where everything is barely out of reach. Too wired to rest, too foggy to play games, I showered, did my dishes, took out the trash, worked extra hard at work today, and I've just been in a terrible mood all day. I'm lonely but I can't fix that alone.

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

I think there's a future where I get the things I want. The things I'm working towards. But christ am I struggling today. I want comfort today so bad. It's been so fucking long.

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

Started daydreaming about someone blowing weed smoke into my mouth before sticking their tongue in and kissing me so deeply and fuck, that made me so hard I can hardly walk, I need that shit

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

@MilkteaMomoko You know recently I've gotten semi-interested in tantra, maybe when I get horny instead of cranking it I should actually go read my fucking tantra book. Thanks for the good idea lol

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

I think I'm ugly

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

God I came twice and I'm already ready for round three, FUCK I need to be ruined.

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

I need an older woman to tell me to shut up and shove her tongue in my throat while she tastes like liquor and cigarettes. That would fix me.

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

God fuck fuck fuck I need to get laid, I need to taste pussy, choke on cock, get my dick stroked until I'm crying to release, SOMETHING

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

Heart hurts today. Badly. I'm so scared of never being happy. Scared enough that I don't want to keep going anymore. It's so fucking painful seeing everyone have partnership, love, and the terrifying fear that I will never have it. I can't do this anymore.

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

I need to kiss a tummy, stat. Like, I need to get my lips on a tum and give it soft soft kisses

[Ark after Dark @LaboumdeCrepe]

What I wouldn't give to eat someone's pussy until their whole body convulses and they scream themselves raw.