[CLOSED INT W/ @TheLightVanish]
Lacey approaches Charlie.
Her eyes were sunken and tired.
It seemed she hadn’t slept in a while, and clearly needs some form of company. And it seems that Charlie is who she sought out for what she needed.
@TheLightVanish She perked up,
Staring at Charlie, Processing the offer.
She did end up taking the hoodie, albeit reluctantly. She slid it on, and curled up into herself, staring at nothing in particular.
She yawned.
She hadn’t slept in who knows how long, And she was drifting off.
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@TheLightVanish But immediately sat up.
Shoot.
' ' Ah..
Uh.
Sorry. ' ' She snorted.
And immediately stiffened up.
She shook her head after muttering a couple inaudible things to herself. Then deciding to look the complete other way.
She wanted to say sorry.
again.
And again.
whatever.
@TheLightVanish She gets over her slight guilt and hidden need, and leans over more to watch the stupid video with him.
She hated being touched. And she hated other people touching her.
But this one, was on her unconscious ‘yeah sure’ list.
So she leaned her head on his shoulder.
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Nobody likes you when you're depressed.
Plain and simple. We can talk all day about mental health and how important it is, but the moment you are depressed, people start to distance themselves. They see you as negative, a burden, and someone too heavy to handle.
but sometimes you’re such a submissive brat because you’re scared somebody will hurt you
or ignore you
or never love you ever again
youre so complicated lacey
nobody truly believes in you lacey
whats the point
so you just lie
and you keep lying
you yell at your friends and they end up getting mad at you
and then they leave
again
you lie
you cheat
you steal
youre a bastard lacey and you know you are
dont get better, it’s the best thing that can happen for you as nobody cares in the first place
what a fucking loser
you’re going to die alone lacey.
nobody listens to you and always ignores what you say. what you ask them to do
you try your best to help but nothing but negativity comes out of your attempt so you just react with rage and hate
fuck you
nothings ever right
@TheLightVanish And respect was expected from girls like her.
From every girl.
Right?
She peeked at his phone, but quickly looked away. That was rude. To snoop, to look at what wasn’t hers,
But she was curious.
And she wanted to.
And she should always have what she wants.
@TheLightVanish ' ' ..mmhey. ' ' she muttered back, sitting by him.
Company. That’s all she needed. And if Charlie didn’t want to talk? She wouldn't bother him.
So she didn’t strike up a conversation,
As the other could potentially already be irritated.
It was respectful to be careful.
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@ACCURSEDKINDRED@TheReminiscing he showed up.
he always shows up.
always
there’s no reason for him to. he’s already ticked years off of her no longer precious life.
lacey eyed her shadow looming over the door.
she gently slid the bouquet of flowers aside, unsure what they were for.
she just wanted to check on her dear friend.
sayori was the only one she had genuine friendly interactions with.
also the one she really considered a
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You prepare for the day of yet another boring day, thinking what just happened was a nightmare.
You walk and walk around the dormitories. stopping at one Door, a door that has its blinds on and the room without a light.
Its.. Sayori's, a bouquet of flowers left at the door.
@ACCURSEDKINDRED@TheReminiscing she scooted away from him as he got closer.
don’t touch me.
don’t touch me.
don’t even try to.
thats all that went through her mind.
through her eyes right now? she didn’t see alucard.
she saw her uncle.
she just wanted to put herself out of her misery,
but..
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@ACCURSEDKINDRED@TheReminiscing she had to go back to her cage.
but she didn’t have a cage here.
so she sat,
and stared.
even if the sleeve of her sweater had loosened, it still remained on her neck.
how she was positioned,
how the hoodie was tied..
everything made her look like a helpless, lifeless mutt.
@ACCURSEDKINDRED@TheReminiscing she remained still , where she was shoved to the floor.
her gaze was like a sad puppies.
maybe because that’s what she was.
she was conditioned to be a dog as she grew up. and right now?
she felt like a child again.
being shoved away was a signal.
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