This won't be your typical story of someone trying to recover from a racist worldview, so please, all I ask is that for anyone who intends to respond to please do so after reading the entire post.
i aomehow feel the reason I am not getting fit is due to sleeping real late at around 1 or 2 am andfeel like it might be playing with my overall health as well and most importantly I feel I cant think and choose properly among the choices that appear to me throughout the day