left her for me also he have a dinner with the one girl at his room in night but he told me those things by saying that he didn't cheat on me despite having so many chances and dude i didnt even knew about those girls when i was in a relationship.
And in the end if we calmed more and let ourselves live in the present more, perhaps we would feel that the present is good enough to the point where we dont need the future to be so much better in the first place.