The other day I posted about Mendez and his dailies, and about artists who can let go of a piece and move on. It's been a few days, and I'm still thinking about it.
When someone says "I'm a perfectionist" it sounds like a humble brag. But if you actually live with it, you know it's not a badge. It's a weight.
I've been making collage for almost 20 years. I've worked with clients I dreamed of as a kid. By any reasonable measure, things have gone well. And yet every single piece I make, I'm convinced it's either the best thing I've ever done or the worst. No middle ground.
And this has nothing to do with the actual quality of the work. I look back at some old pieces I now know are bad, and I remember feeling that exact same impossible swing while making them.
The quality changed over twenty years. The feeling didn't.
That obsession is probably why the work looks the way it looks. I won't pretend otherwise. But if I'm honest with myself, seeing flaws where there are none, trying thirty more variations when the piece was already done ten versions ago... maybe that's not perfectionism. Maybe it's just fear. Fear of letting go. Fear of letting others see it and judge it.
That's why I admire artists who've built a discipline around releasing. The daily practice isn't just productivity. It's choosing, every single day, to show the work before the fear talks you out of it. That's not discipline. That's nerve.
@MarsBlut53@chosen3g@dimithryv It’s really not that deep 💀, it’s based off a pic of me and X users are a bit crazy and don’t want myself plastered all over it. Not that I should have to explain myself to you.
@flexicutionyt The cinematography is very good. Surprised they managed to do all the great VFX work they did with mostly FX3 footage. They used a different way of filming from conventional filmmaking which is nice to see on a budget this had