Sabre Dance

Former account, redirect to @SabreDance_

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@MilWolfMylo I raise you a cuddle for a kingdom

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but that boat has seemingly sailed and been torpedoed

in fact, you may as well call it the Lusitania

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Its a weak day. I rather don't want to continue on or do anything.

Fortunately, I don't know how to do anything else or unbottle my feelings. I don't trust anyone enough to see that side of me.

Easier to trust none and be free of disappointment and them inevitably leaving you

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I think there was help enough. Less said, the better.

In fairness, I deserved it, I shouldn’t have expected more. Or wanted more.
On me overall.
Easier to re-realize you’re an unlikable waste of space.

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To feel appreciated. To feel an equal exchange.
But I cannot expect it. Two minds about it

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Flew too close to the sun
Wanting more than I could have
The melting wax, the flexing wings
Taking the plunge back where I belong

Expect nothing
Ruin everything
You peice of shit

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Is that you pointedly stating something. You’ve got distant as of late

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I fell for him head over heels. Its past any rebound desire

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What the hell is the point to anything I do. Perceptual fuckup. Have a degree at sub 50k/yr. Will apply for Navy.

Probably die alone

FML

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Now I am properly emotional. Wanting what I cannot have, spiteful to situation, and upset I have no one to lie to me about mattering.

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insignificance

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I have too much love :/

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No rational reason, as intellectually, I have NO right

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Reworded for accuracy: when you like someone but it won't work for reasons, but they are active in the dating scene but you feel jealous

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@at_buckweiser Oh hey, I forgot this was my repurposed account, not my super secret vent account.

But yea

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Opening your heart and finding it ignored and deemed unimportant just sucks

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Its not always alright. I always play the sensitive, say its cool. Some times I want some attention and affection back.

it works both ways

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I can answer that: you were supposed to be my everything. Supposed to be my best friend always.

I am trying, hon.

I cannot be as open now

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Honestly, I am struggling at work. I am struggling emotionally. I fucking hate how, almost a year later, I am head over heels still.

Why.