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Sorry for projecting my negativity out onto Twitter, I do not want to be that person at all! Life is rough. But I'll ride this one out, like I always do. In the moment it just feels endless. Feeling dispassionate and hopeless is the worst thing that happens to me.
I haven't been feeling like myself lately, I get lower by the day and everything feels flat. I know it's the depression coming back, I've been here before, but I don't know how long it'll last and I'm not ready for it π«
I don't know how I'm gonna get out of this one. My passion and care for everything has gone. I hate who I am like this. It feels endless. Every day is so awful.
I haven't been feeling like myself lately, I get lower by the day and everything feels flat. I know it's the depression coming back, I've been here before, but I don't know how long it'll last and I'm not ready for it π«
On a superficial note the nicotine patches have made my arms FAT which has not helped those comments I got about my body like 2 months ago and still haven't recovered from.
But whatever I'm just hoping I'll come back from all this and be myself again some day soon. I miss her.
Sorry for using twitter as my journal but I saw this coming because the flashbacks and post-traumatic nightmares have gotten severely worse and there's nothing I can do because it's triggered by where I live which I had no control over and I resent it