lily rende edtwt

hate page for myself | ed vent acc | 21 | -72lbs CW: 150lbs, GW: 125lbs

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

genuinely how do you not eat when ur at home and bored all day 😭😭

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

Good morning my mentally ill baddies🥰🥰

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

Ok tmr I am: getting my Apple Watch back on DAILY to count steps, go for walks, and counting cals no exceptions

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

How do u starve but not get hella brain fog

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

Any tips on not binging when u have a skinny bf with a crazy metabolism that likes junk food

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

My legs are so fucking huge

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

I’m back. I feel so fat and gross. I’m 20lbs heavier than my lw and I can’t anymore. I tried on these jeans that fit me last year and now they’re TIGHT. Gonna use them as motivation to have them loose again. Fuck my life I just fucking love food

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

@adelicatething Only helps if u are restricting at the same time

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

I forgot how low my energy is when I’m fasting like I just want to stare at a wall

[Princess @princesscoded0]

@Zoalfcedancers Girl as a short girlie trust me it’s BETTER to be taller you guys look sm leaner than us if I gain 5lb it looks so obvious . I’m small but I never feel “small enough”

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

@mewodzlols I did it a couple times because it actually felt like it was a better pain than the feelings I was feeling

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

Yeah goodbye food and energy, I can’t be this fat a day longer or else I may take scissors to my body to get rid of it manually

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

No matter how much weight I’ve lost I still look so fat from my face I’m not cut out for regular life I wanna be so bad but I’m disgusting.

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

@no_irls_allowed @prissypervert That’s my boyfriend and I fucking hate it

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

How I feel for at least 48hrs after i see a candid video of me and I look so fucking fat.

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

I want more than anything in this world to chop off my double chin. It’s so disgusting. I can’t even bear to look at myself without wincing, it may mean I gotta go lower than before but atp if I want to have a life it needs to happen so yayyyy can’t wait to go on 2hr walks

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

Just had one of those moments where you are completely baffled and disgusted in urself that the only options are to kill itself or starve and get skinnier. I thought I lost enough weight but holy fuck my face is huge!! Like genuinely fuck my life.

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

Hey guys! I want to end my life! I have a yt channel and I tried to film myself and I hate everything about how I look. I’m so fucking fat it’s disgusting. It makes me feel sick thinking about how people see me like that everyday. Get me out of here please.

[lily rende edtwt @LilyRende]

I’m back now my bf has left for school and the depression is kicking in so gotta put it to good use and get skinny