I want to be mentally well so i can get back to my creative parts of my mind. And make movies and tv shows. And if i fail i don’t care. I just need to let this fire in my belly out and burn the evil of the world down. So all the good can return from the ashes.
Damn. That stomach virus and manic episode combo wombo did me in for the best. A lot of self reflecting and just finally getting the true clarity i needed in life. Gonna reach out for medical professionals. And finally heal my mental health once and for all.
Also because of that im gonna be deleting all social media apps off my phone. And just cleanse myself of the filth and smut that i been ingesting online. I let myself get too burnt. And apologize to myself the most. For allowing it to reach this point. But im thankful also.
And when things felt better, calm. Another family member gone. Plucked.
And i still grieve everyday. Where my heart felt mush by it all. So i don’t know what to do or what I need. Or were ima end up. But i know i need to talk to professional help. And that’s where im starting.
That i seen the light i needed in the darkness i was in for to long. And the dark only got darker with the passing of my brothers and line of other family members dropping like dominos around me. Watching people i love suffer at the hands of this world. It got bad.
I hope the poor little team that toei put in charge of the fishman island remake is doing okay mentally. Cuz it shows they gave such little support. And probably gonna catch a lot of undeserved reticule for it.
@carlkisser_ Don’t even know these type of white folks. But the non hispanics in my area love their fair share of mexican candy. I remember sharing with a group of white kids and black kids in middle school Going crazy for the blue flavor Bubbaloo. They were blown by a gushers type of gum.