Lo`oh

Lo`oh is my Amis name
it’s my indigenous name
call me Lu, Loo, whatever u want

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[geist @geistbox]

hey,

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🌪️

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deepening the same wound

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Princess Viscera

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[Gᛊᚱᚹᚺ ❤️‍🔥 @gerph_art]

Breed Masters

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Fuck still super afraid of commissions

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https://t.co/KfTMYkgj0n

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Still, despite all that, this past year has truly made me happy
so i wanna improve myself to be more open minded, more brave

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Someone once told me that I dont really seem like an introvert
I can still talk to people normally, even though I rarely form deep connections
It’s just hard for me to keep a conversation going for long

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Because of this, my tendency to overthink has gotten worse
It’s gotten to the point where I think things like
"That person didn’t like my art did I do something wrong? Do they hate me?"
even though deep down I know it’s just a small thing

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Love and hate people

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I’m not at the point of doing anything stupid
but every day feels like I’m torturing myself inside

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friends have all given me advice on how to stop overthinking
I’ve tried to work on it myself too, tried everything, but it’s really hard
It’s been almost a year, and I still can’t get my mind to behave
Every bit of pressure I feel comes from myself.

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Who doesn’t want to be someone’s first priority, right? But I always end up using these clumsy little ways to try and make that happen lmao
Maybe it’s because I didn’t get enough attention growing up
Probably
Pls punch me to death (jk

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Fuck it
I still kind of want to write something

When I say things like “I want to disappear for a couple of days,” it’s really just an excuse
I just want someone to care

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I do that a lot. I’m not sure if it comes from narcissism or insecurity, but whenever I *think* I’m being ignored, I start trying to get attention on purpose
It’s gross, isn’t it?