To my other half: if you're out there and we meet, I will appear to be a very trusting, innocent girl.... The second we step into the dating world, that changes.... It becomes difficult to trust and to let you in and I'm sorry in advance...
"How can you love when your heart is broken? How can you speak when you feel outspoken? I can forgive and be forgiven... By learning to heal with a heart wide open..."
I guess I just can't trust men in general. I'm sick of being betrayed. The love of my life destroying my heart then my dad who I've lived with all my life betraying me and turning into my abusive stepmother. I'm tired of being hurt to the point of depression....
All I really want for Christmas is a guy who loves me for me and not for my body. This time last year I was blindly in love with a guy who only took and never gave. This year in March he decides I'm not worth fighting for anymore and he left... It still hurts...
So I'm currently working on a little stuffed zebra for my 4-year-old niece. And I have about a week to finish it. So far I only have the head and a single leg made. Crunch time is getting crunchy!!
People who first meet me see only the exterior. The hyper (and sometimes probably annoying as hell) side of me. But what people don't realize is that what I show people isn't always the real me.... I have a tendency to hide how I really fee about something....