Intro time finally~ (ㅅ´ ˘ `)
Hi hi! I'm Maree, a goth dreamweaving lil gal!
I like to make-a the art and talk about piss n balls too much!
♡・art | #spilfart
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I’m really disappointed in EN Sealtwt right now!
I have barely seen anyone with a big account talk about it, so I’m putting my foot down! Please, donate, speak up, do anything you can to help raise funds for zeehondenventrum!
Read more below! ⬇️
@AmaraMortalis You're basically a help hotline for people dealing with all sorts of hazards from ants, mold to more mythical/folklore hazards like the fae, wisps, gnomes and lots more! It's super fun (and has a Christmas DLC too which includes more creatures like Krampus) and some dope music
i can’t stand when people act like the main issue with porn is that it ‘harms men and fries their brains’ and not the trafficking, rape, exploitation and inherent degradation and dehumanization of women
just bc someone doesnt meet ur standards of what u deem attractive does not mean it warrants being an absolute asshole to them
some of u are vile and rude as hell
oi, gente
o caso epstein está infelizmente caindo no esquecimento nos últimos tempos, e ver que uma coisa desse gênero perde a visibilidade após sair "do hype" é horrível.
por isso, quero pedir um rt nesse tweet caso você puder, assim ajuda a chegar em mais pessoas.
ADHD as a VTuber is not “haha I got distracted.”
It’s the stuff people don’t see. Starting late. Dropping a plan you were excited about 10 minutes ago. Opening OBS, then suddenly fixing folders, the model, a thumbnail, and realizing you were supposed to be live already. Hyperfocusing on Warframe for hours and then having nothing left for replies, art, or the next stream. Making a schedule so your brain has a track to follow… then your brain yeets the track.
I want to talk about one part that hits hard and a lot of people still treat like a joke:
Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria. RSD.
RSD is when your brain treats rejection, criticism, or even the idea of someone being disappointed like an emergency. Not “aw that sucked.” More like your chest drops, your thoughts start racing, and your whole body goes into “I messed everything up.”
It can come from a quiet chat. A stream with low numbers. Someone not answering. A collab that didn’t happen. One comment that sits in your head for days. To other people it looks small. To an ADHD brain it can feel huge.
As a VTuber that gets ugly fast, because you put your face, voice, art, and time out in public. Then your brain starts writing stories. “They didn’t show up because I suck.” “That one message means everybody’s tired of me.” “If I go live and it’s dead, I should just stop.”
Sometimes nobody even rejected you. Your brain just filled in the silence and called it proof. That’s the trap. Silence feels like a verdict.
What RSD is not: being dramatic on purpose. An excuse to attack chat. A reason to never take feedback.What it is: an emotional spike that can be way bigger than the moment. Shame that hits fast. The urge to disappear, over-explain, or never try again. A lot of us don’t look “sad.” We look busy, quiet, jokey, or gone.
If you watch streamers, this is the part I want people to understand. Low view nights happen. Delayed replies happen. Someone needing space happens. That does not automatically mean the person failed, the community hates them, or they should be ashamed for existing on stream.
If you have RSD, one cold comment can outweigh 20 kind ones. That’s not logic. That’s the wiring. If you’re the viewer: don’t diagnose people in replies. Don’t say “just don’t take it personal.” Don’t pile on when someone is already spiraling. If you want to help, be clear. Be normal. Don’t turn a late start into a referendum on their worth. A “glad you’re here” does more than a paragraph of advice.
If you have this too: you’re not broken for feeling it that loud. You also don’t have to obey the first story your brain writes.
For me the work is simpler schedules, going live even when confidence is at 10%, not turning every quiet night into “I should quit,” and remembering one stream is one stream. Not my whole value.
Still here. Still streaming. Still figuring it out.🦇
This has been fun but onto my interpretation! (this'll be a long one)
1. Self (Death) - It's relatively straightforward and something I am currently working on, shedding away old parts of myself and accepting change, transforming myself into something new. Regardless I'm sure more internal change needs to occur.
2. The Moon/The Subconscious (Reverse Nine of Wands) - Subconsciously, I have been isolating myself be putting up too many walls as a defense likely a result of things of the past
3. Mercury/Skills/Integrity/Business (Ten of Swords) - This card expresses a lot of anxiety around potentially improving skills or my integrity and so I should face my fears and find closure in doing so.
4. Venus/Love (Page of Swords) - I'm being told to be more honest and direct with the people I love (I tend to be shy when expressing my feelings). I should also not hold back on sharing new exciting things with the people I love and continue being curious.
5. Mars/Hostility/Aggression/Opposition (Reverse King of Swords) - This..is an interesting one. The reverse king of swords basically says I have a need for control so in this instance, I fear I'm following my ex abuser's steps of "needing to be right" in a conversation.
6. Jupiter/Finance (Knight of Pentacles) - With finances, be more efficient. I should let discomfort in not having money motivate me to do stuff. I'm being told to be patient lol.
7. Saturn/Intellect (Ten of Cups) - I interpret this as fulfilling relationships and finally being in a place where I feel safe and loved with healthy boundaries, I am able to grow in my career and for my future without any background fears of anything stopping me.
8. Outcome (Queen of Pentacles) - I'm being told here to basically live in comfort but also to continue enjoying simplicities and to be resourceful.
Anyways~ I might do these on stream, big spreads are fun to do and interpret. Note to take these with a grain of salt. I do think they apply relatively well to my being and overall I am stuck and need to change how I view some things in order to move forward. I thought it'd be fun to share this - and this took a lil bit cuz I'm just a wee bab at this stuff. Stay safe and well out there dreamers~!
GUYS I'M TESTING OUT TAROT READING BY DOING A PLANETARY SPREAD ON MYSELF AND IMMEDIATELY PULLED THE DEATH CARD (I'll update in a bit what the I'm being told lmao)
Guys I've been shuffling normally, tell me why I have two reversed cards, god damn (I have 3 more cards to pull, lowkey scared lol) cant wait to show yall cuz I have the requiem arcana deck so it looks omega menacing
GUYS I'M TESTING OUT TAROT READING BY DOING A PLANETARY SPREAD ON MYSELF AND IMMEDIATELY PULLED THE DEATH CARD (I'll update in a bit what the I'm being told lmao)
GUYS I'M TESTING OUT TAROT READING BY DOING A PLANETARY SPREAD ON MYSELF AND IMMEDIATELY PULLED THE DEATH CARD (I'll update in a bit what the I'm being told lmao)