I had a great fourth of July with my kid and his friend, Hung out at the park till the fireworks started, Just shooting some hoops, The fireworks were unbelievable, They did an amazing job
Before Christmas I was in a bad place mentally, My sister said pray to God, I opened up my heart and I prayed, Next day I got a unexpected phone call,About a job from a friend, since then my life has changed completely, It wasn't easy to get here, I put all my trust in Gods hands
I told my kid don't believe rumors, When someone is talking badly about someone else then what kind of person are u if you believe them, Sometimes you need to do the investigation yourself
I asked my sister, how come sometimes I'm so negative, She said because trauma, We relied on people who let us down, we had to survive when people abandoned us, Our parents were only teaching us how not to be instead of being safe in their arms, Sometimes all we had was ourselves
I don't give myself enough recognition for the things I've been through, I feel like the battle isn't over and I'm stuck in fight or flight mode, I can't celebrate my wins bc I feel like there's more around the corner to show me what it's like to be humble..
I don't think of it enough but I am thankful, God has shown me what it is like to be thankful for, The clothes on my back, The water that is running, The electricity, The healthy walls that surround me, The people who I've met, Reflect where you came from and take a step back π
Last night I took an hour to myself just to play music, I was organizing and adding music to my playlist, Mentally I felt better, a lot going on in my life, I'm just making time for myself...
My nickname at work is sour patch kid, first I'm sour then I'm sweet, Apparently I have a work wife and she brings me frappes bc I told her I haven't had one in over a year, she's nice I like her