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20 yrs • 5’5 • not anorexic idk what my problem is anymore

[may .𖥔 ݁🍂 @mayneeds2starve]

@rrosemarycals i genuinely do not know how to stop like i’ve never been this out of control before

[may .𖥔 ݁🍂 @mayneeds2starve]

i’m so close to my hw im so uncomfortable and terrified but i still eat every single meal and snack im offered

[may .𖥔 ݁🍂 @mayneeds2starve]

@allen_d_up_dead i’ve done this shit before i’m so sorry😭😭😭 my professor was super nice about it so im hoping urs is too

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@elderisback the protein brownie has a chemically taste but i didn’t actually mind it too much, the light and fit is sooo good, i really loved the chobani flip but ive heard some people say it isn’t sweet enough

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i don’t think i belong on here anymore, i don’t have a restrictive ed anymore

[may .𖥔 ݁🍂 @mayneeds2starve]

i hate myself bc i just keep eating and gaining and i genuinely feel powerless ive never felt this horrible about my body and self control before

[may .𖥔 ݁🍂 @mayneeds2starve]

i want to recover but i can’t cope with this weight i really can’t

[may .𖥔 ݁🍂 @mayneeds2starve]

i need to start losing again i genuinely can’t live like this i haven’t been this heavy since 2023

[may .𖥔 ݁🍂 @mayneeds2starve]

ok i am genuinely less than a pound away from being a healthy weight oh my god im gonna throw up

[may .𖥔 ݁🍂 @mayneeds2starve]

i miss an-r i miss my lw i hate this life

[may .𖥔 ݁🍂 @mayneeds2starve]

i think i’m a healthy weight now and im so depressed and disgusted

[may .𖥔 ݁🍂 @mayneeds2starve]

@starvin_dyke i lowk think i’m going to be too insecure to even wear one🫠

[may .𖥔 ݁🍂 @mayneeds2starve]

ugg so i’ve been eating maintenance to stop binging and it’s actually been working but i still hate my body sm and i just KNOW i will feel more comfortable if i lose 5-10 lbs, but restricting will instantly trigger me binging i just know it omgggg i hate my life

[may .𖥔 ݁🍂 @mayneeds2starve]

@thepinkhour ur probably allergic to him😹

[may .𖥔 ݁🍂 @mayneeds2starve]

couldn’t sleep last night ugghhh today is gonna suck now

[may .𖥔 ݁🍂 @mayneeds2starve]

genuinely just considering recovery like focusing on recovering from BED instead of even trying to restrict

[may .𖥔 ݁🍂 @mayneeds2starve]

@elderisback i drink sugar free cocoa and hot lemon water ! i’ve never been into tea but hot lemon water is tolerable to me and it lowk makes me feel skinnier lol

[may .𖥔 ݁🍂 @mayneeds2starve]

ok successfully omaded today but i’m still so fat that im a lost cause so i can’t even feel good abt it

like i can’t even feel good about restricting until im 105 lbs or less

[may .𖥔 ݁🍂 @mayneeds2starve]

how to stop binging seriously how

[fret ⊹ ˖ ࣪ ִֶָ✟.๋ ࣭⭑ @mitsurikcalroji]

they were right 😭😭😭😭😭😭

Never let yourself get fat 😭😭😭 bc you Will be spending the rest of your life trying to get Unfat 😭😭😭😭😭😭