Yes it gets lonely here and there but the peace that comes with not being attached to anyone? Oh my goodness I used to pray for days like this. No one ruins your day because they disappeared on you or they didn’t reply to a text you just live your life in peace nje ke light man
I do not handle hurt well at all and I do not like who I become when I am hurting. That's why I really don't like being mistreated or played with. If you aren't genuine, don't even bother me, Just move around.
Sometimes I really be disappointed in myself because I know I’m better than the choices I made. I know I’m better than what I stayed around. I know I’m better than the stuff I kept excusing like it was normal. And that’s what bother me the most, not only what people did, but what I allowed. But I don’t stay sitting there thinking on it. I take the lesson, tighten up, and move different.
And if love finds you again, I hope God allows you to meet the one who sees love as deeply as you do, someone who is constantly interested in what happens in your life, someone who is kind, caring, knows God and faithful.
I realized people only like you when you're easy to benefit from. When you say yes, stay quiet, and let things slide, they love you. But once you start saying no, setting boundaries, and standing on what's right for you, evervthing changes.
Suddenly you got an attitude. Suddenly, you're the problem. Truth is, they never respected you, they just liked your silence. I'm not being difficult, I'm being real. If me protecting my peace offends you, that's your issue, not mine.
I'm at the point of my life where as long as I know I did right by you, I don't mind walking away when it doesn’t work. Family, friends, lovers, anybody.
i think I lost my spark. I talk less, I keep to myself, I've mastered distance. I'm not angry, I'm not bitter. I just don't have the energy to show up like I used to. Somewhere along the way, I slipped into this I don't care phase.
i've realized all i truly want is someone who loves me the way i love them.And then it hit me. My love language isn't physical touch, it's reciprocity. It's effort that goes both ways. It's choosing me without being asked. It's checking in, showing up, and staying consistent. i want someone who gives back the same care, time, and energy i give. not more, not less, just equal. i don't want to chase love anymore. it should find me.
One of the purest things you will ever experience, is someone who genuinely tries to fix themselves so they can love you the way you've always deserved. Not in a grand, dramatic way, but in quiet, consistent moments where you see them choosing to grow. When someone looks at their past, their mistakes, their habits, and instead of making excuses, they say, “I want to be better for us.” That is love.
My toxic trait is that i’ve normalised silent treatment when im not in mood for a talk. I don’t really know how to express my feelings especially when im sad and hurt. I only talk to myself in my head about how i feel all the time.
I honestly don't want to be strengthened by difficult situations and be tested anymore this year. I'm tired. I want soft experiences that teach me the grace and gentleness of the Universe towards me.