just found out that if your extra sleepy when you're around your partner it means you're chemically bonded. your body releases hormones like serotonin and dopamine when you're together, which makes you more sleepy? that's the sweetest shi i've ever heard
Literally walked 6 miles today because I don’t feel anything. In such a numb state. I hate when I feel like this. Just like I’m in autopilot. Straight dissociative episode.
Unfortunately, I do want a provider. I do want a protector. I do want a leader. I do want a dominant man. I do want emotional maturity and effective communication. I do want mental stability. I do want to be spoiled. I do want self awareness. I do want clingy, obsessed and safe. I do want someone who chooses me every time. And nobody is going to make me feel bad for wanting those things in a partner.
my favorite part of healing is when i stop lying to myself and start accepting people for who they were to me instead of whatever potential i projected onto them