Grabi as I read through my previous posts I realized how I was completely heartbroken and stressed out those past years and it was so painful to think that for those years I battled those problems and anxiety silently and alone. No one knows how I wanted to give up.
How I wish I can go back to those years na my only worst battles are insecurities, the feeling of exhausted and disappointed with how my life go through cause right now was very different it was worst. The will of giving up was too high now.
I am completely not saint. I've done hundreds of sins and mistakes all through out my existence but would that be enough justification why I'm suffering right now?
When you are surrounded by good, smart and talented people you constantly feel envious wishing you are one of them. Bisan isa lang abi wala gid ko ahh,
Everyday, for over a years now, every morning I wake up with heavy hearts, feeling exhausted, empty, disappointed and envious and sleep with the same feeling at night. Grabi nd ko https://t.co/Ax1Jsk3STT kung paano ko ni na survived.
Mas mahirap palang kalaban ang sarili nu? Walang araw na hindi ka sasampalin ng katotohanan na Bobo ka, pangit ka, hindi ka magaling, disappointment ka lang. Grabi sana naman balang araw kahit isang beses lang ma feel ko pud nga worth it ko..