my childhood trauma didn't make me stronger it made me a people pleaser, it made it impossible for me to give up on people, it made me exhaustingly empathetic, and it made me constantly have the urge to take responsibility for everybody's problems even if I didn't cause them.
If I approach someone to initiate a conversation about how I didnโt like a certain way I was treated or I didnโt like how I felt after an interaction with them and Iโm met with dismissive words or energy, as far as Iโm concerned, thereโs nothing left to discuss.
Cried so much this year, I really hope Iโm much happier next year. Itโs one of the things Iโm praying for. A joy that stays. A joy that is not easily shaken.