it's actually crazy to give a decade of your life to a job and then when they fire you for being trans (explicitly), they act as if they're throwing you a bone letting you show up out of uniform until they figure out how to fire you.
neat trick if you're feeling down:
1) think of someone you know
2) make up a fake but perfect version of them in your head
3) pretend your made-up person is actually the real person you know
4) yearn and suffer