i feel sad because he was a part of a band that took up a big chunk of my life. i also feel sad because of the type of person he was and how he never sought out help. it’s gonna be mixed emotions wow.
one direction gave me my bestest friends, some of my dearest memories, and changed my life. that being said - i do not condone the abuse one bit. it is weird grieving a person he has not been for a long time. i am struggling to find the words for this feeling & situation