Motivation_with_Spedden

There are different layers to me but on this app you get as close to the core as possible! These are my raw thoughts!

[Motivation_with_Spedden @MotoSpedden]

I struggle almost daily trying to figure out who the real Eli is? Since our divorce she's changed her phone number, blocked me on all socials and had me banned from Parris Island for #stalking. WTF? I don't know the new her. But was this her all the time?

[Motivation_with_Spedden @MotoSpedden]

Crazy how the NFL preseason schedule played out. I'm now living in Atlanta and her favorite team is the @Colts. Why does this matter? Because 11 years ago we got #married. Now I'm still reeling from the #divorce four years ago 😔. I miss #EliMcSparin so much!

[Motivation_with_Spedden @MotoSpedden]

I wanted to know how I could message her on #instagram and tell her she was the reason I avoided #unaliving myself and she decided to not respond and blocked me? She has truly shown me she doesn't care about me as a #humanbeing. Not sure if I wish her all the best anymore.

[Motivation_with_Spedden @MotoSpedden]

Been a minute since I posted anything. Part of me felt like I was too harsh dragging down #EliMcSparin and part of me felt like I hadn't said enough. Last year she got me banned from Parris Island claiming I was stalking her. Honestly I was looking for answers.

[Motivation_with_Spedden @MotoSpedden]

Seeing this is both motivating and sad. I'm so proud of my ex #elimcsparin but crushes me how bad things have gotten between us. I'm surprised I lived past Aug 22nd since that was the day I circled to end everything. #SuicidePrevention #Marines #usmc

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[Motivation_with_Spedden @MotoSpedden]

I keep counting down to my final days. Not confident I'll make it through the end of the year. The ex now considers me some psychotic stalker and has done everything to avoid talking at all. I never thought her and I would ever get this bad.

#SuicideAwareness #DepressionIsReal

[Motivation_with_Spedden @MotoSpedden]

This post was meant to signal my last day on earth. It's now about a month out and I'm not sure if my mind has changed.
#MentalHealthAwareness #MentalHealthMatters #Divorce #SuicidePrevention #bipolar #EliMcSparin

[Motivation_with_Spedden @MotoSpedden]

💀 082225 😢

[Motivation_with_Spedden @MotoSpedden]

@DailyLoud damn he got his drivers license and booty license in the same year 🤯!

[Motivation_with_Spedden @MotoSpedden]

@itsjameliz We judging? Just curious 👸🏻🤫!

[Motivation_with_Spedden @MotoSpedden]

@CoachMattRhule Oh this is my coach! Btw Coach left you a message on Instagram hope you get it! Praying for an amazing season! Go Big Red!!!

[Motivation_with_Spedden @MotoSpedden]

Sometimes you need to eat some humble pie and realize you're to blame for your perception! Did she just leave you or left you to learn a lesson? Well I'll humbly say I'm in student mode currently. Sorry to disrespect the 👸🏻🫡! #elimcsparin

[Motivation_with_Spedden @MotoSpedden]

This is #EliMcSparin and I did her so wrong! Especially on this platform I have bashed her 🤦🏻‍♂️. I wasn't able to take full responsibility for my actions! This is not a pity party though! Legend is coming....the man she knew I could be and I failed! My bad! I got the! #LFG #legend

[Motivation_with_Spedden @MotoSpedden]

Hello X!!!! Do you hold up 👀👀👀!
July 28th Lights on!
@Pontifex @ajc @FOX5Atlanta @cnnbrk @CNNPolitics @FoxNews
#mentalhealth #MentalWellness #❤️☮️💪🏼 #MoralCollapse

[Motivation_with_Spedden @MotoSpedden]

hits with zero response I'm launching!!!! I am not a rebel. I'm saying I rather share my opinion respectfully behind closed doors than me deciding to dominate on social media platforms. Your call!
#elimcsparin #Marines #MentalHealthAdvocates #Suicides #suicidesolution #advocacy

[Motivation_with_Spedden @MotoSpedden]

This has been literally my biggest waste of time posting stuff! Is you look back on posts and tags in theory I should be known more! And not just known more but how did I post my DOD aka date of death on here and nothing????? Update that date was wrong I attempted suicide on

[Motivation_with_Spedden @MotoSpedden]

Would love your thoughts and opinions but if not I keep pushing forward! My name is Rob Spedden I have ideas on how to improve Marine Recruiting, improve mental health and how to improve society as a whole. Tonight is your warning! We can chat online or off. But if July 28th