my main big fears are all based around my worth and loneliness, and it sucks. I don’t want to be forgotten, I don’t want to be the only one putting effort in, I want to be thought about, and loved and remembered
my favorite kind of intimacy is when two people start using each other’s random phrases and mannerisms without even realizing it. you just wake up one day and realize you speak a little bit of their language.
In better news… I bought a joint of beef for my birthday week so your girl is making steak and onion sarnies and living off those till I financially recover (also got steak and avocado)
literally feel the worst I have in years only thing holding me together is MY dog. I’m tired of never being understood and I’m tired of reacting to things people can’t understand. I’m sick of being “too much”
the expectation is killing me
make a phat zoot, get a quick body shower, get my fresh clothes out the dryer, hot chocolate on the go and an audiobook to annotate while I smoke my pretty brains out - sounds good