The problem with you is that you want to compete with John from your workplace. You might be earning the same salary but John is from a very well-off family. John's parents don't need John's money. There is money ready to take John's siblings through Varsity. John's salary is for John only. John can decide to rent a fancy apartment in Academia because John can afford it. On the other hand, it's YOU. Your parents sold their last cow to take you through Varsity. You are the breadwinner at home. Because you want to be like John, you leave the family house to go rent a luxury apartment in Academia. You want the people to see that you and John are at the same level. When the pay is finally in, you pay your expensive rent. Your parents are calling nonstop because your sibling will miss out on the final exams if they don't settle the outstanding tuition fee before they sit for exams. Your parents need money to buy food at home. Now, you are stressed and ignoring calls. Your parents think you are selfish because you don't wanna assist at home after all the sacrifices they made for you. You now go to a cash loan to get money to assist at home. Next month will be even worse because you have to pay back the loan. Depression kicks in and it all started with you trying to be like John without doing a background check on John. Be content with what you have and just try to be the best version of yourself every single day. If you have reached this far, have a blessed day ahead.