Bad Apple

the song explains my current mood

[Bad Apple @MurielRowan]

I don't want to lose the ones I love

https://t.co/qZOtdCQEB6

[Bad Apple @MurielRowan]

My breakdowns have become more frequent, I have then at least every other day, I feel so alone

[Bad Apple @MurielRowan]

@pastelblack2 You always have us Cali

[Bad Apple @MurielRowan]

She has evolved 😁

[Bad Apple @MurielRowan]

@pastelblack2 as a Chao ♥️ gonna raise it to be a hero Chao

[Bad Apple @MurielRowan]

@pastelblack2 please call us

[Bad Apple @MurielRowan]

#depression #depressed #depressing
https://t.co/4sw3stLoyp
#iFunny

[Bad Apple @MurielRowan]

One of my friends might die tonight, I feel so useless

[Bad Apple @MurielRowan]

@pastelblack2 We love you

[Bad Apple @MurielRowan]

@the_oddities_ We're always here for you

[Bad Apple @MurielRowan]

@pastelblack2 Please don't go back to Woodridge, it'll kill us and deviate BT if you went back

[Bad Apple @MurielRowan]

@pastelblack2 are you able to call now?

[Bad Apple @MurielRowan]

@pastelblack2 I know you probably won't do this, but please call, I need to hear your voice, I can't sleep, eating is a challenge, I miss you and the pain of possibly hurting you is eating me up alive

[Bad Apple @MurielRowan]

I'm in so much pain

[Bad Apple @MurielRowan]

I've forgotten how to see; I've forgotten if I can
If I opened up my eyes there'd be no more going back
'Cause I'd throw it all away, and it all would fade to black

[Bad Apple @MurielRowan]

Ever on and on I continue circling
With nothing but my hate in a carousel of agony
Till slowly I forget and my heart starts vanishing
And suddenly I see that I can't break free--I'm
Slipping through the cracks of a dark eternity
With nothing but my pain and the paralyzing agony

[Bad Apple @MurielRowan]

If I make another move, if I take another step
Then it all would fall apart. There'd be nothing of me left
If I'm crying in the wind, if I'm crying in the night
Will there ever be a way? Will my heart return to white?
Can you tell me who you are? Can you tell me where I am?