I miss my momma so fckik bad. I genuinely will never be the same or heal from this shit. My fckin chest wanna cave in thinking about my momma being gone I swear to god I wouldnβt wish it on my worst enemy this the worst fckin pain I ever felt in my life !
The way I support people and show love for them, show care and compassion I wish I had that. I wish people had that for me. But itβs life and I just have to focus on moving on and trying to heal myself and excelling in my life, still hurts and feels like shit tho.
And people are always allowed to treat me however they like yell at me speak bad about me and to me and Iβm the one that has to apologize, no apology for me nothing because I never mean shit to anyone Iβm only important when people need me after that I ainβt shit
Drunk and high all the time. Iβm trying to stay humble and trust gods process and trying to allow myself this time to really focus on me but emotionally Iβm spent and genuinely just ready to give up.
Everyone keep telling me stop crying stop being sad accept things for what they are and Iβm doing my best but it just feels like I take hit after hit after hit. Iβve lost so much and been through so much trauma I donβt know how to move forward. How to heal. Thatβs why I stayβ¦.
I wanna experience a man loving me so much, that hurting me is unfathomable to him β¦ even when weβre not seeing eye to eye. On our worst days, Iβm still the apple of his eye.
Broke btch you ainβt got it huh πππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππ
Everybody could leave me guess what bitch Iβm build for this shit too wrong bitch I always win!!!! Now watch this π
Iβm protected by god is you coo no matter what Iβm always gon be on top I promise you !!!