I've decided to take a break from Fortnite and content creation for God knows how long.
Honestly, I don't even know where to begin. I'm just tired. Tired of everything that's been happening, tired of the hate, tired of being judged and bullied for simply being who I am.
I feel like I've spent so much time giving everything I have to other people. Supporting them, helping them, being there for them whenever they need someone. But when it comes to me, it feels like none of that is ever returned. Instead, I get hate, disrespect and people constantly finding new reasons to bring me down.
People don't understand how much their words and actions can affect someone. I've been carrying so much trauma, frustration and anger inside me for a long time, and it's getting harder to deal with all of it.
I genuinely loved creating content, competing, streaming and being part of this community. But something that used to make me happy has slowly become another source of stress in my life.
I'm not making this post for attention, sympathy or to make anyone feel bad. I just want people to understand that there's a real person behind the screen, with real feelings, struggles and limits.
I don't know when I'll return. Maybe it's weeks, maybe months, maybe even longer. Right now, I need to put myself first for once and take some time away from everything.
To the people who have genuinely supported me, believed in me and stood by my side, thank you. I appreciate you more than you probably realise.
I hope one day I can come back with a better mindset and enjoy doing what I once loved again.
For now, I'm stepping away. Take care of yourselves.