You feel lost in life because you've been trained to think fake and gay things are important. Scared of what others think (they don't have original thoughts btw). Afraid of losing something in the world (you die = it's gone anyway). The only thing you "keep" (continually experience) is YOUR SPIRIT but you cuck yourself by letting institutionalised thought structures FUCK your experience upside down with fake rules. Almost everything you've been told is a lie or half truth. If you stopped giving a fuck right now about the retarded reasons of what you "have to do". You'd have nothing to do at first. GREAT! first step = Boredom. In that boredom is where your curiosity comes in, whatever triggers the deepest excitement in you. SPRINT TOWARDS IT. Move country, run up a biz, have a blast with your friends, pilgram through Tibet. It doesn't matter. When you can finally break free from the bounds of what you "have to do" life magically works in your favour and pulls you into an experience more deeply enjoyable than any conjured up, logical plan. The best part is the uncertainty lived from outside the "rules".