The women you thirst for don't fancy you.
The queer men you hate so much don't even look at you twice.
That feeling of inadequacy + homophobia now has you fantasizing about imaginary attention from queer men to feel better about yourself.
Pain.
I can only feel sorry for you.
I feel like alot of you are angry about outspoken women and women who encourage other women to be outspoken because you grew up watching your mother be submissive. You saw the amount of power your father had. Now you are threatened that you may not have that power over your wife.