might be a bit drunk idc I cannot stress how much I love my friends and family and my colleagues like no one is perfect and we all have our days but I’m so proud of all of us for persevering also I went to the movies tonight for first time in so long. sitting down but on purpose
even though my parents passed on a lot of hinderances and cognitive difficulties to me and we have a complicated relationship- I am proud of them. They’re in their later lives trying to be better people and that is something you don’t see every day. Power to neuroplasticity!
When I was a child I used to have these violent outbursts when my environment became frightening or confusing. As a child, violence made the problems go away. This is a hard lesson to unlearn and in needing this to survive I ended up hurting a lot of people. It’s horrible really
move in with friends > relapse > move in to own apartment > currently trying to keep up my standard of living > studying science, DBT and a new language > cleaning every day > trying to maintain health in my relationships > trying to improve communication > shaved head
my timeline is abuse/domestic violence > acting out, alcoholism + addiction > perpetuating the cycle and abusing others > being diagnosed, medicated and going to rehab > discovering DBT and barely doing it > relapse > self isolation in squalor for years > move from that- cont.
this app is really unhealthy for me and I’m going to use it for music promo stuff only from here on out and definitely no more manic episodes in public I love the environment
I made this video presentation on this fungi for uni and literally I just do not know a damn thing that isn’t what I read in like 4 articles and here I am… studying it? science? wtf am I doing. They will catch on probably but until then… scientist.
@jessbian93 also didn’t mean to sound like a wanker. anxiety is fucked and sometimes just about suffering- sorry if that was unhelpful and I hope you feel better soon
@jessbian93 All the time Jess! There’s this technique called ‘opposite thinking’ where you counter every thought with the opposite even if you don’t believe it. Consistent practice helps us to exist in a neutral state a lot easier. I’m currently three months in and it’s helping despite all